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May 28th 2011. Right back up to 325 lbs. Sigh.

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November 2010 - putting the weight back on :( but no idea how much I weigh here.

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One of the worst pics of me... which is why it's here... June 2009

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I'm working at figuring out why I keep holding myself back from succeeding and achieving everything that I want in my life. And once again, I'm starting over.

It's been about a year since I made the command decision that I wasn't going to allow my weight to hold me back, and keep me from living the life I want. I was desperate. Obese women are common in my family, both sides, and I was pertified of dying from a corinary in my thirties.

I've spent my entire adulthood as a plus sized woman, so initally trying to figure out my goals was difficult. How will I know if being 160 pounds is realistic, and GOOD for me? All I do know is that I'm tired of waiting to be slim and healthy. Clearly, it's not gonna happen while I'm sitting on my backside, devouring a bucket of ice cream. And although it seemed as though the weight just materialized on my body overnight, it wasn't about dematerialize anytime soon!

And so my journey began.

For my 30th birthday, I wanted to give myself the gift of freedom from obesity. I'd promised myself that I would go from 313 lbs to 199 lbs in 11 months. That's a 10-11 lbs loss monthly, which was completely reasonable. However, I neglected to take into account LIFE. Things like being unemployed for 10 months, then finally starting a new job (stress!). And relationships, and moving, and health issues...

I knew a couple of months back that I wasn't going to reach my inital goal, and I got quite depressed about it. I felt like a failure. And in true pessemistic fashion, I dwelled on my "failure" and plateaued at my 33 lb loss, THEN gained back 14 pounds!! Stuck in a rut. So what now??

Well, I decided it was high time I changed my focus. I'm so good at getting hung up on all the negative, which means I need to make a concentrated effort in reminding myself that eventhough I didn't hit wy w/l goal, I HAVE BEEN SUCCESSFUL!

~I fit into a size 20 for the first time in 7 years!
~I got over my fear and joined a gym!
~I'm changing bad habits to good ones, and feeling great!
~I found the root cause of my emotional eating, and am in therapy and seeing a nutritionist to help me get a handle on that.

Everything is still a work in progress, which for an emotional eater, will be a life-long journey. But I'm deep in the process of changing my relationship with food and trying hard not to be my own worst critic.

And just like any addiction... one day at a time.

Member Since: 8/24/2009

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Hi! I'm Andrea and I live with my two kitties in Edmonton, Alberta.

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I've started a recipe blog. All these recipes are meals I've cooked myself and all of them have pictures linked with the recipe in my SP blog as well.

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    Well, I'm with you on the regain! So, I'm back at Spark as of 10 days ago and tracking food and activity levels again. But this can be done!
    3795 days ago
    I hope you are doing okay!

    3890 days ago
  • v MRSKS2009
    emoticon I have a hard time with some of the "color groups" too, but this challenge is pushing me to get them all in! If nothing else, eat a salad - with lettuce, tomato, carrots, purple cabbage, and maybe some slivered almonds or something - that's your whole rainbow right there!!
    3924 days ago
    Thanks for stopping by my page to support me. I know exactly how you feel about emotional eating. I rarely realize that I am guilty of emotional eating, but I'm sure if other people were to look at my eating habits, they would probably say I do it all the time.

    I hope that your realization helps you with your journey. I think for a lot of people, it isn't 1 thing that makes you change your life, it a whole multitude of little tiny realizations that help you change one little tiny thing at a time.
    3930 days ago
  • v EPHSTOP43
    Zumba can be a bit intimidating if you are shy....
    but when it comes down to it.. most girls in the classes I've taken have been just like me... not models, but regular ladies of any size, shape & age, just wanting to shake their bootay!!!

    And dang it's fun!!
    3930 days ago
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