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Jamaica 2005--Me at 135 lbs. I want to become that girl AGAIN! And I WILL!!

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I have always as long as I can remember struggled with my weight. Even when I was thin in high school and college.. I "felt" fat. I don't know why.

Two years after my second son was born I decided to change my life and I did. My max weight was 189 pounds. I lost about 50 pounds with diet and exercise in 1997. I did great at that weight for almost 9 years.

Then I started to get lax. I love eating. I always have. It FEELS good to eat!!!!!! I started to not really monitor my food. I had a pig out fest in Jamacia in 2005 and never got control when I got home. I gained 15 pounds over the next 12 months. I wasn't happy about it but I wasn't miserable enough to do something about it!

Then, I quit smoking November 15, 2007 and since then I have gained another 20 pounds! Honestly after i quit, food tasted soooo Good. I guess I got my taste buds back!

NOW ... Its spring.. and back to shorts and swimsuit season! And I am MISERABLE! I feel hopeless and out of control. Some days I just can't stop eating. And once i start I will eat until I'm stuffed. I don't know why I do this. None of my clothes fit. I feel horrible about myself. I am to the point where I am avoiding situations because I feel fat and I don't want to be seen.

My 25year class reunion is sometime this summer. I'm freaking out. At my 20th I weighed 137 pounds. I over heard a guy that nite talking about me. He said WHO IS THAT GIRL?? Was she in our class?? SHE IS HOT!!!!!!! That made me feel sooo good.

So with the grace of God, and some major determination I'm am starting this weight loss journey again..... and I don't even remember how I found this website, but i thank God I did!

Since starting JUDDDD I have felt in control of my eating again. its been so long since I felt that. When I lost the weight years ago.. I did a similiar diet on my own. I restricted calories all week and would eat whatever I wanted on weekends. I had noticed that even after having high calorie days on weekends, on Monday I STILL LOST!! So i am going back to what works for me. JUDDDD I think is even easier then what i did before. Mainly because I'm calorie restricting every other day instead of 5 days in a row. I feel great, my clothes are getting looser everday, and for the first time in a loooooong time, I feel in control of my life. And i also feel hope that I can do this once again!

Member Since: 4/20/2008

Fitness Minutes: 60

My Goals:
Short term goals:

To keep track of my food daily in my nutrition tracker.

To only eat when I'm hungry and always leave at least 3 bites of everything on my plate.

To drink at least 8 glasses of water every single day!

To try to do cardio 2x's a week minimum.

To be able to wear the "fat girl" clothes I bought last summer-- which no longer fit me.

To lose as much weight as possible in time for vacation Memorial Week.

To be able to wear a swimsuit on my float trip in July 08-- and not feel like a big fat cow.

Long Term:

To eventually be able to put on my size 4-6 jeans again!!!!!!!! THAT is truely my goal!!!!!

To wear the mini-skirt that has been hanging in my closet for the last 2 years because it doesn't fit!

To have guys take a double take when they see me walking down the street. That always makes me feel so good. and is the true test of whether or not I'm at my weight goal.


My Program:
I am currently doing JUDDDD. I have felt really in control of my eating since starting this. I have not felt like this in 3 years. I am trying to do some cardio a couple times a week. And I am also keeping a food journal--I used to be a constant grazer. I am hoping with this program I can once again gain control over my life and food.

Personal Information:
I am a 43 year old divorced mom of two boys ages 17 and 12, and 2 cats named Cuddles and Domino. I lived in Collinsville, IL which is 10 miles east of St. Louis, MO. I am a registered nurse and I work in the Operating Room of a Pediatric Hospital in St. Louis. I love to travel, spend time with family and friends, go to my kids sporting events and like most women, I love to shop! I have recently gotten out of a long term relationship and I am going to use this time to focus on myself and work on getting back into great shape!

Other Information:
Right now I am reading Alternate Day Diet by Dr. Johnson and I am working on incorporating the principles into my daily life!

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    Welcome to the "Friends of Dr. Johnson" team. We are a fun, talkative team and are happy to have you. Feel free to post any questions, comments, advice etc, we are open to any ideas you may have.
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    I look forward to seeing you on the threads!
    Good luck in all you do and the choices you make,

    4763 days ago
  • v no profile image LEFTY08
    Welcome Autumn! This is going to be a GREAT summer for you! Stick with it and get ready to hear those whispers... "She's hot!"
    4767 days ago
  • v SUSANZ
    Hi Autumn and welcome to Spark! I guess we're Birthday buddies! Let's make this year a great one for both of us!

    Best of luck to you in reaching your goals!
    4770 days ago
    Welcome to SP. I just signed up here yesterday, and see we have a similar weight loss goal. Hope you don't mind I've added you to my friends.
    4772 days ago