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Got to see Optimus Prime in London last year! :D My life is complete!

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my best ever snap of a swan down by the embankment during an Autism Bedfordshire Social group walk

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Hi, I am autistic with anxiety disorder but I am still a kind, caring and honest girl who likes to get to know new people so if you would like to message me to talk, then I am happy to hear from you.

here is a little about me in facts:

was born with 15 holes in the heart.
almost died 7 times before 10 years old.
Last hole healed when at age 18 years old.
Asthma left at around 13 years old.
Diagnosed with autism and anxiety disorder at age 20 and now trying all I can to stay the way I am in appearance.

Is now 26 and pleased to still look young for my age. As I am four years to go before I am 30, I really want to try to be as active as I can be, as I really want to be like my elderly friend who does her own home workout in the mornings and is 70 but she looks way younger.

Member Since: 7/3/2018

Fitness Minutes: 16,265

My Goals:
Main goal: To stop being underweight by increasing my BMI from 17.7 to 19.6 to be on 50.3kg instead of 45.5kg on the scales.

thoughts of myself: To not get as one would say ''a spare tyre'' for a stomach. I would really not like to become short, fat and in sizes 20-22 by the time I am 40. Partly also due to wanting to have a well balanced lifestyle cause I keep going all over the place with things and I am sick of it. It is time to get it sorted out.

A one dream: to get toned as much as possible so people from schooldays can be proven wrong about people who were born with heart conditions and asthma. Those who are asthmatic and got heart issues can have those issues heal in years, and can do what other people around them can do.

reason for the dream: to reduce likelihood of any diseases or cancers in later life, I have a really bad fear of developing such things...

My Program:
N/A (I follow my own. I work solo thank you very much. I dont follow anyones rules. I stay in my own shadow thank you)

Personal Information:
My actual name is Rebecca. I would rather not say my full name due to not wanting any old school friends or family knowing I am on here. this is how shy and nervous I can be about how self conscious I am...

Almost died 7 times as a kid due to heart issues of 15 holes in the heart with asthma, and nearly two times when I was 19 years old due to a close anxiety attack.

Job role: support worker for those who are more autistic than me, they can have possible mobility issues where they require a wheelchair or a walking frame, or even someone beside them incase they stumble. I work with all ages in autism and mobility.

My work days are:
Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays.

How long do I work per week/day:
3 hours a day, 9 hours per week.
9:55AM to 1:00PM.
walk back to town and am there by 1:15PM, good timing for the 1:32PM bus.
Get bus back from town at around 1:32PM.

My thought of my job:
I love my job and it is my life, I like to help oth

Other Information:
Lifetime wish: To go on holiday solo by myself for the very first time without being in someone else's shadow.

People in my life I care about?
I had two people who I cared about who I thought the world of but they were taken away from me by the world... so now I stay silent and keep to myself... I won't have anyone else be lost... these two people I care/ cared about is my sister... but also was my grandfather... My sister; social services has her, she was taken away from our parents. As for my grandfather, long story; he passed away 31st May 2017... I did all I could to help him but it werent enough...

Relationship history:
Had a guy promise to me we would be together, that we would go places together and that it would be ''soon'' when I got to have his parents get to know me and for mine to get to know him, but that never happened for he turned his back on me. He asked ''may we just be friends?'' in October 2013 after I waited for him since 2009! He promised he wo

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