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First tattoo Aug 2009 as a reward for reaching 160lbs.

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Around 200lbs Feb 23rd 2001


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My ultimate mission here is to explore the viability of my apparent 'optimum' weight of the short term, I am heading for 140lbs and see where I want to go from there! I am currently at my lowest post-pregnancy weight.

My secondary goals are to work at gaining complete financial stability and to finally get my house straight.

My original Community Journal (from the pre-blog days!) is here for those who wish to read: 6 to 14 and halfway back!/4/1/1172076

Member Since: 12/31/2005

Fitness Minutes: 818

My Goals:
To feel sexier

To not feel like everyone is staring if I run or eat in public

To set a good example to my kids

My Program:
When I first started here, I tracked my first week or so with no changes and found I was having at the most 600 cals....and that was a day I was feeling completely stuffed! A normal day could be as little as 200cals, weekends I often ate nothing at all. I couldn't imagine doubling my intake over night, so I worked on small changes. Firstly, there is an article that lists some high-calorie healthy foods, such things as nuts, seeds, dairy etc. I stocked up on those and snacked on them to bulk up my intake.

I never had breakfast at that time, so I started making a point of doing so. I considered my first food of the day breakfast, but only if I ate it before 11.30, anything after that became lunch.

I kept track of my breakfast streak, starting off with a streak of only 3 or 5 for the first few weeks, gradually creeping up to become 30, 40, then more. Now I can't function without breakfast!

Now I have learned to listen to my body...that is the key!

Personal Information:
I am Tonia, 39 yrs old, from Devon, UK.
Newly separated from my husband, but still tied due to his disabilities.
I have 3 beautiful girls aged 19,17 and 10.

Other Information:
At the age of 16, I dealt with the normal stresses of being that age by simply not eating. My lowest weight at that time was 6 and a half stone (91lbs). I can still remember now how I looked in the mirror at that time...I can remember the podgy tummy looking back at me!
I now know the truth... MIRRORS LIE!!! When we are skinny, they make us see the fat and when we become fat, they show us some super-slim something. Mirrors show the us we think we are...I rely on photos to show how I look now, they show us as others see us.

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