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I've never really cared about my weight or how big I am. Sure, I at times get a little jealous and feel like a whale when standing beside stick people, but generally I feel healthy, able, and beautiful, even if I'm considered obese.

Some of this stems from my mother having cancer. She was always obese but a lovely person, caring, compassionate, and sacrificing. When she got sick and lost a lot of weight from the illness people left and right would tell her how good she looks. Even after they learned she had cancer, I'd hear comments like 'keep it up' 'well, you look great'. My mother was dying and all people could think about is how great she looked in those smaller jeans. Now she's gone and all I want is my big fat mother back.

And then theirs my weight specifically. I was always kinda fat as a teen. Then I turned eighteen and my routine changed a bit so I lost all this weight without trying. I was shocked at how many people came up to me to comment on my weight loss. It wasn't encouraging. All these people that I thought liked me for who I was really cared about how big I was. Had they been judging me? Thinking me less of a person for being big? And then when I gained all the weight back, I knew all those people were thinking the opposite. Look at her. Why can't she just stop eating? I know it's not as dramatic as that, but it still hurt my feelings to see how many people were concerned about my weight.

Anyways. I have some goals now and this website looks absolutely awesome!

Member Since: 5/4/2009

Fitness Minutes: 2,918

My Goals:
I want to be able to lift more weight and quit being so helplessly girly.

I want to have energy and strength to work on landscapes. Maybe start a landscaping business on the side. My current condition prevents that. I want to be able to help the boys dig a hole and not run out of breath climbing a steep hill.

I want to sleep better. I think I weigh a bit too much to sleep comfy.

And yes, I want to fit into some skinny jeans. :P

My Program:
I'm going to work out and try to eat a tad more healthy and a tad less. XD

Personal Information:
I'm Manda, 25, from Texas. I'm a cashier +++ at a local nursery. I'm obsessed with succulents of all kinds. I love native Texas grasses and rock gardens. I love water elements too. I'm also a complete nerd. :)

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