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I never updated this area since I started Spark. I suppose its time to tell my story.

I have been overweight all my life. When I was very young my mom became sick with an unknown disorder (still to this day unknown). I was only 8 years old and already knew medical lingo that adults dont even know how to pronounce let alone what it means. I started to form an immense fear that my mother may not live to see me grow up. I became very depressed and even agoraphobic. Through the years it progressed into a big emotional mess. I had been on nearly every pill, visited so many doctors, and even was hospitalized for depression. Things got so bad that I had to be pulled out of school in 8th grade just so the focus could be to get me mentally healthy. I did have a few year stint where I was an emotional eater. I could sit down and finish off a whopper, and a cheeseburger, and a hershey pie and still not feel satisfied. That was short lived, but the damage it did was devastating to me. Since I became agoraphobic and was terrified to leave my house I gained alot of weight from lack of movement and too much eating. By the time I was about 18 I started to break my shell. I was inspired by a chef named Paula Dean. I heard that she too had been agoraphobic at one time but is now a happy healthy thriving woman. I was so inspired that I ran to my mom and told her I want to go to culinary school. I had always had a passion for cooking but my agoraphobia kept me strictly inside my own kitchen. My mom didn't believe me but followed along with all the ''preparation'' of finding the perfect school. Mind you, I hadnt been in school for nearly 6 years at this point. I found a community college since we werent quite sure I was going to make it. The first few semesters were rough. I still had bouts of depression and I was VERY self conscious. I sort of felt like I fit in only because theres not many skinny chefs out there. One year into school my shyness, agoraphobia, depression - you name it...was gone. I had fully recovered from depression. body did not recover from it. I was already over weight and school did not help one bit. I finally made the decision over the summer to make a big change. I was mentally healthy, and I wanted to become physically healthy as well. I didn't take a cooking class all summer and I went to try on my uniform for school and it was very tight. I sighed and decided it was time for a change. Here I am...if I could beat depression - I can beat obesity too.

Member Since: 7/20/2008

Fitness Minutes: 11,782

My Goals:
See the 170s by my birthday (January)

My Program:
Trying to change my eating habits as a whole, not considering it a diet!

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Im from the Chicaoland area. I am trained as a chef and work odd jobs here n there with catering and foods!

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  • v ERABEL
    emoticon job on your weight loss
    2591 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/3/2014 4:36:32 PM
    Hello there! Hope your weekend is going well! I know you were interested in recipes--if you go to, they have some tasty, healthy recipes, and I'm sure with your knack for the culinary arts you could jazz some up a little if they weren't up to par! emoticon
    2644 days ago
    I LOVE camping! I hope you had a good time! I am going camping in October, for the first time in almost 5 years..I haven't been camping since my first son was born. Now I have an almost-5-yr-old, and a 1 yr old, so it should be interesting lol. I think they'll like it though. Of course I know I won't get to do someof our usual activities, like whitewater kyaking, but I know we'll have a blast! Keep up the hard work. Stop by and let me know how your weekend went :)
    2820 days ago
    Hi, just stopping in to check on you. I just read your introduction. That sounds incredibly hard and you are so strong for pulling through all that! I'm so happy you are in a much better place now. You have a great attitude and I know your determination will take you to the finish line! Keep working hard. You don't have to work out every day, your body needs to rest! I am sorry to hear about your allergy, that must be insanely hard!! There IS citrus in everything :( I ate bad all day, but when I got home, I did my workout even though it was 11 p.m... Tomorrow will be a better day, a chance to make better choices :) You can do it!! emoticon
    2826 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/10/2013 11:58:39 PM
    That's awesome!! It's cool to know someone is so close! Yeah I have definitely gone past the YMCA a couple times but have never gone. I have friends who work there though, haha.
    2830 days ago
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