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This is the most recent pic I have of me. It is from 4.29.12.

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I'm really trying very hard to grow my hair back to this length again!

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Self Portrait! LOL!

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I'm not exactly sure why, but for a long time I have denied who I really am. Whether from fear or shame or guilt, I have hidden who I really am. I'm 30 years old, and just discovering that. So who am I?

The Good:

I am passionate, and determined. And yes, I AM DISCIPLINED! Why did I not know that before? Why have I told myself all these years that I wasn't disciplined enough to stay on track and lose weight? I am beautiful. Incredibly beautiful. Beautiful in ways that are entirely unique to me. I have a beauty that cannot be hidden, and that no one can take away from me. I am intelligent, and creative. And I am deeply and unconditionally loved!

The Not-So-Good:

I am an emotional eater. I denied that for many, many years. I'm struggling with my self worth and value. Up to this point in my life, I didn't believe I had any. Now, I'm fighting to break free from that lie and truly discover that I am worthy and have value. This is probably my biggest obstacle, and it feeds the emotional eating.

My Hope:

I am hoping that through this journey, I will discover more and more of myself. I feel like I have only been living a small part of who I really am. I am excited and nervous to uncover who I was really created to be, and to see all the limitless potential that creates.

Member Since: 7/2/2007

Fitness Minutes: 18,047

My Goals:
Build up my body's strength.

Learn healthy eating habits and portion control.

Learn to forgive myself when I mess up.

Fess up to being an emotional eater, and find tools to combat it.

My Program:
Tracking nutritional info with my SparkPeople page.

Participating in group fitness classes four to five times a week.

Incorporate running and strength training.

Set realistic goals with rewards along the way for big and small achievements.

Personal Information:
I am learning that persistence and perseverance are not the same thing, but that both have a place in life. I have perservered through a very difficult season in life, and I am blessed to be moving into a new season of joy and abundance. Now, it's time that I make room for persistence so that I can finally reach my goals! No more surviving, but living!

Other Information:
My Goals:

200 - Hot Stone Pedicure (6/13/12)
190 - Art Supplies
180 - Massage
170 - Spa Day
160 - Three Day Vacation
150 - Skydiving
140 - Family Pictures
130 - Boudoir Photos
Goal Reached!!!

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    Thanks for the idea about stretching, I am going to try it! Yeah, I am usually pretty busy but I have a schedule down that generally works. I just don't like it when everything decides to happen at once, it's very hard to organize it all then.

    Thanks again!
    4251 days ago
    Thanks so much for the advice. I will definitely try to use that for making my choice tonight. Most of the potential places I know what to get to stay on track, but there are a few that I am not so sure about. Once I know though the research begins...
    California to Iowa, what a change. I have lived in Iowa most of my life but have recently gotten on on trips including California. To me seems like paradise. Your still young though, you never really know where your life will take you.
    Good luck and happy sparking :)
    4251 days ago
    hey...yea yesterday i was so sluggish and just hanging about, ended up starting the day off good then eating too much at night, i think thats my biggest prob is late night snacking. Hope your doing awesome, today is a much better day for me, i got my work out in and ate some healthy food a good switch from yesterday lol. But every once in awhile, bumm days are good for you so kick back and do something light :) talk to you soon!!!
    4251 days ago
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    Hey, I replied to your comment on my blog but I have no idea if you get notified about something like that. So I wanted to leave a comment here saying thanks for the tailoring suggestion. I never even thought of it!
    4252 days ago
    hey thanks so much for responding on my blog, i needed a little nudge as we all do from time to time. Im always looking for people to help me be accountable with because otherwise its really easy to slip, so maybe if youd like to keep in touch and keep up the motivation id be more then happy, im trying this time around to really get involved and write down my progress so i can make it work. Good luck today and hope to hear from you soon :)
    4253 days ago
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