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Im kind of a geeky dorky creative hippiechick. I dont fit into any mold, being quiet doesnt help. :P Im an INFP and an HSP (highly sensitive person).

Goal Number One (and its a big number one!) Love myself more!
Goal Number Two (another biggie!) Open my heart back up!
Goal Number Three-Strengthen my body and become healthier.

starting over again on here. I am determined this time!!! I did spark people back in 2007 and lost 40lbs which I have totally gained back! It needs to go away again and stay away this time!

About me... Im on a Bhakti (devotional) path, trying to learn more yoga and singing mantras (Kirtan), these things help me stay connected to God and Spirit. I have a private blog that I keep for myself and in it I wrote (because I stress and try to control everything) to work on controlling the only things you really can control, and that is your spiritual path and loving yourself a LOT more. and to let go and trust in the rest (which is hard for me! I struggle with chronic anxiety, social anxiety and depression). This is my path now and being on sparkpeople again is part of trying to love and cherish my self more.

I struggle with depression, social and chronic anxiety. I'm not on any medications for that so every day is a challenge, and some days every hour and every minute are too! I did end up in the emergency room and hospital in August of 2015 with a heart rate of 222 beats per minute. I am grateful I somehow did not suffer a heart attack or a stroke, but it was due to my anxiety and panic attacks. I also dont eat much bread or white flour (I let myself have some on weekends) because I get migraines from it. I'm also an orphan with no family, and no friends nearby (my bestie lives on the other side of the planet!) so I am on this journey alone. I am proving to myself every day that I can do this!!

My program as posted on my blogger blog

Target days Monday-Saturday

Final Goal: (updated 2/5/12 1/22/14 1/5/15 11.28.17) - Feel better about myself and my life. To lose weight, get fit and sexy and feel healthier! More energy! Find my self worth and BELIEVE IN IT! To be happy where I am. To not fight every change as if my life depends on it! To allow all good and abundance into my life so that the universe can grant me the things I love and wish for most AND ABSOLUTELY DESERVE!- first on that list- being with J in real life. Also first on the list, getting back to Celebration and STAYING THERE!

Weekly Actions:
Root Chakra exercises IE Warrior and Archer pose, mul mantra.
Do Tae Bo, Tiffany Rothe workouts (or any workout!) and Strength Training M-F (Strength every other day), continue to follow sparkpeople diet regimen.
Continue spiritual practices 7 days per week. Mantra practice.
Mental and Emotional support...read a page a day in Until Today and a chapter in my current kindle, (Save any good quotes to spiritual journal), Write in gratitude journal each night, Read a chapter and do exercises for In the Meantime, KIRTAN!!!!!, Inner child workbook, fearless living, change your life in 30 days, soul coaching. You have a lot of work to do in this area chickie!!! Go kick some serious butt! :D

Daily Actions:
1. Spiritual Practices. (Kirtan 11 minutes a day at least)
2. Do Tae Bo, Tiffany Rothe Workout or another cardio at least 6 times a week.
3. Strength training 3 times a week.
5. Accupressure mat 15 minutes per night with meditation
6. Spend 1 hour each week organizing.
7. Declutter at least one thing each day.

Special Permission:

I give myself permission to have enough time for everything and to be successful in the goals outlined above!

Love myself LOTS more!
Get healthy and reach 130 lbs.
Embrace going with the flow and being happy where I am.
Find my self worth! It is hiding someplace!
Trust Spirit
Embrace acceptance
Learn Spanish
Release fear
Release control
Release negative thinking
Do more yoga!
Do Sadhana every day
Write a chapter for my Sophie book each week or equivalent of 1500 words.

Member Since: 7/12/2013

Fitness Minutes: 4,646

My Goals:
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My Program:
In my profile!

Personal Information:
Currently living on Long Island & hate living in long island/NY. Grew up in Florida. Celebration florida is where my home and heart is, and Im working very hard to get back there.

Other Information:
Advice to myself, from myself!

Work on controlling the only two things you *can* control:

Loving your self a LOT more


Strengthening your spiritual self and practice.

Two things completely under your control. Let go and trust on the rest (I know this last part is asking a lot but you will be able to do it, eventually, with a lot of practice! Just keep trying to trust the universe!)

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    The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself." Anna Quindlen
    1186 days ago
    FOURTEEN pounds gone! Woo hoo. I hope you will have a Sparktacular Saturday.

    “Nearly every man who develops an idea works at it up to the point where it looks impossible, and then gets discouraged. That’s not the place to become discouraged.”-Thomas Edison
    1222 days ago
    I just added you as a Spark Friend. I hope you will have a terrific Thursday. Reading your blogs and loving them! emoticon

    "You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call failure is not the falling down, but the staying down."–Mary Pickford
    1224 days ago
    Hi there. Just wanted to stop by and say I loved your blog about the caterpillar and the butterfly. Was definitely an eye opener for sure. You have a great perspective on things. Keep writing! ❤️ Ally
    1231 days ago
    you're most welcome! Every day is a new day in our journey. With the own challenges up and downs. I am learning and discover new things of myself every day. Take one day at the time and luck for the positive and the strength you have inside of you. Have a bless week. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1240 days ago
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