Wednesday, March 26, 2008

I had gained 100+ lbs and didn’t care how I looked. Strangers and new friends who meet me now would never imagine that I was someone people use to stop to ask if I was a model. My reflection has changed quite a lot.

One of my biggest challenges is realizing my need to gain control of my life— I had really let myself go. Not only my weight gain and my appearance, but everything in my life was reflecting that I had completely given up on myself... life had become overwhelming and complicated.

My home was piling up and out of control... and I was no longer the woman my friends called their own personal “Martha Stewart”-- I haven't thrown a fabulous party in years.

I am trying to understand how I let my life get so out of control... and I am trying to approach CHANGE from the inside out. I realize it isn’t JUST going to be about what to eat, what not to eat, and how to exercise. I MUST begin by feeling GREAT about my body... before I HAVE a great body again. I must get comfortable in my own skin and accept and love where I am today... and not be so wrapped up in the finished product.

So, TODAY I begin to focus on what I like about myself. Believe me, it is much easier to quickly say what I hate. However, I am going to concentrate on those qualities I like. And I’m doing this the same way I taught myself to be my worst critic-- by daily examination. Only THIS TIME, the daily examination must be concentrated toward my positive attributes. This way, I erase those old mental tapes and replace them with new, positive affirmations. SUCCESS BEGINS when I stop being so hard on myself and I CELEBRATE everything I have going for me.

THINK ABOUT IT: What do I like about myself right now? I am writing it down and will keep the list handy to add to it as new realizations pop into my mind. I will make the list as long as I can make it.

I will ALWAYS stay focused on these positives, even as I get into better shape. This positive thinking will help me develop self-acceptance and body confidence. The more I realize my positive, I begin feeling much more passionate and fired-up over my own abilities and strengths. I begin feeling good about the process involved in losing this weight and my focus is no longer just on the outcome.

I remain OPEN and WILLING to do whatever it takes to live a healthy lifestyle. I have a new commitment within myself to FIX what’s broken and this openness allows ME to change for the better.
I joined Spark People and began my weight-loss journey Sept. 18, 2007.
I have lost 42 lbs & 14 inches during this time.
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    Love this blog!

    Thanks for sharing!

    4790 days ago
    Oh and by the way......... to me you still look like a model :)
    4791 days ago
    WOw I love this blog.... you are such a great person. This completely ties in with my blog about being too hard on myself. I will try and keep this blog on my mind. Next time instead of beating myself up I will try and pin point a positive. Thank you.

    4791 days ago
    Great attitude and motivation!!
    4792 days ago
    As always, you are a fountain of good motivating ideas!! Hope your Easter was wonderful!!
    4792 days ago
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