Reality Strikes and the Psychology of a Number
Friday, April 04, 2008
Ok, I was feeling SO in control, making great progress in the past couple of weeks. I had a 3-day trip to Washington, DC starting Sunday and I did so well on my first day there despite the usual temptations. I even resisted the amazing looking huge homemade cookies at the coffee shop and the dessert sampler I normally would have eaten!
Then two things conspired against me. First, there was a digital scale in my hotel and I simply couldn't resist. I wanted to see what it said, especially with fractions of pounds. I have an old, non-digital scale that I know is lacking in precision. Of course, what's really important it that it shows my weight losses and gains. When I left home, my scale at home said I was just over 146. I was feeling downright skinny (see my previous post). The digital scale said 148.6. YIPES!!! Now, the saving grace is that this weight still keeps my BMI under 25, but it was amazing how letdown I felt. The fact is, my body was exactly the same as it was the day before. Yet I felt "fat", as though everything I was working on came to naught.
And on that same day, I woke up feeling LOUSY. It was the front end of a cold, which I'm only just now on the brink of overcoming. And what comforts me more than anything? DESSERT!! Resorting to dessert in times of physical or mental stress is a time-honored tool of mine, and I have to say that it usually works. I really need to figure out how to address this. The good news is that I was confident I would get back on track when I was able to resume exercise and feel generally better. And I have. People speak here so much about making lifestyle changes. I think I'm still a ways from that. Much to learn and grow.