STENEJULIA

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Hope!

Sunday, May 11, 2008

So, here I am, another month has gone by. Have I improved since the beginning of this year? I think so. Will I be able to take back the rains of my life that I dropped last fall? I feel hopeful. I am gathering the pieces that were shattered, and slowly fitting them back into a whole. Most of them don't fit in the same places they did before. It stands to reason, since I am not really the same person that I was before. It hasn't been easy, and I am not anywhere close to being done, but I have regained something most precious...Hope! I had lost it along the way, but now I have it back, It's not very strong yet, but it gets stronger with every passing day. Someday it will fly again! I still get frustrated, and try to do too much, but I see some progress where before there was only retreat. That in turn feeds the hope, which strengthens me causing me to make more progress. The cycle that took me down(seeing myself unable to complete the tasks I needed to do and being discouraged) is now lifting me up(seeing myself complete the tasks I need to do and being encouraged)!There is still a lot of hard work to be done, but maybe when it is done, I will be stronger then I was before! I can hope!
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  • BLEEDINHEART
    Sounds like your getting it all figured out....I would definitely say you have grown and are changing ... Sounds like your stronger than you think. Just the fact that you came to terms with that and you know where you stand, is a big accomplishment within itself ...Your such a beautiful person... I wish you all the hope and encouragement you need along your way....I will be praying for you...If you need to talk or just a shoulder, I'm here for you....
    *HUGS*
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    4794 days ago
  • NEWINSIDEOUT
    Wow! emoticon Don't know how I missed this blog. I try to check in every so often. I thought I was here more recently!

    I love the comment about the pieces not fitting where they used to. Congrats! You're growing up. I have another relative who is in college and about to move out permanently from home. She's frustrated that things can't stay the same and I was trying to explain to her that it is a part of growing up... you have to let it go that things are going to be different and just embrace that. I don't think she wanted to hear it yet though.

    I'm glad that you are feeling the depression lifting. If you are like me then the Spring makes a difference. The more light there is the more successful I am at my goals etc.
    4808 days ago
  • REIGN1
    You are always stronger than you think you are!!
    Remember baby steps and know that there will always be setbacks! Gawd I know all about setbacks and I keep plugging along. All these Spark friends are make it easier.

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    4821 days ago
  • DZIAWER
    You already sound stronger
    4825 days ago
  • OLIVEJUICE2
    Hope is GOOD!!! And you're right, you'll gain more & get stronger each day! Yay!!
    4825 days ago
  • EMPRESSBOBZILLA
    I am so glad your feeling better chica! You are always positive when we talk and you should know that if you need an ear I am here to listen as well! ::massive hugs:: And congrats on the progress!
    4825 days ago
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