Sunday, May 11, 2008
So, here I am, another month has gone by. Have I improved since the beginning of this year? I think so. Will I be able to take back the rains of my life that I dropped last fall? I feel hopeful. I am gathering the pieces that were shattered, and slowly fitting them back into a whole. Most of them don't fit in the same places they did before. It stands to reason, since I am not really the same person that I was before. It hasn't been easy, and I am not anywhere close to being done, but I have regained something most precious...Hope! I had lost it along the way, but now I have it back, It's not very strong yet, but it gets stronger with every passing day. Someday it will fly again! I still get frustrated, and try to do too much, but I see some progress where before there was only retreat. That in turn feeds the hope, which strengthens me causing me to make more progress. The cycle that took me down(seeing myself unable to complete the tasks I needed to do and being discouraged) is now lifting me up(seeing myself complete the tasks I need to do and being encouraged)!There is still a lot of hard work to be done, but maybe when it is done, I will be stronger then I was before! I can hope!