Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Ok, I'm the lightest I've weighed in probably 20+ years (well maybe I weighed 2 lbs less than now for all of like 2 days in 1997). And my upper body is buff--big triceps, visible chest muscles--I can see muscles in my stomach and I can see my hip bones. I can envision a day when I won't have excess fat at my waist (I wouldn't dare to presume the same for my legs and butt). I bought new work clothes for a big meeting next week and the skirts and jackets were size 8 and the knit tops a petite S! This former size 14 never even knew I was big on top (I harbored no such illusions about the waist down), but I'm WAY smaller.
So why the heck to I feel so darn dowdy?! It's frustrating to know you're strong and somewhat lean, but feel like the rest of the world can't see it. It's not that my clothes fit outrageously poorly. They're just not showcasing my assets. And it drags me down. And of course I don't have a ton of cash to buy a new wardrobe for every 5-10 pounds I use. Darn it, I'm going to Old Navy Friday night and buying cheap, cute tight tops and shortish skirts! I have a date Sunday and I want to look GOOD!