Good day and beyond
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Yesterday I felt great about what I've been accomplishing with SparkPeople and my weight loss. I spent the day with friends mountain biking and hanging out at the pool. Everyone who'd spent any time with me before commented on how great I looked, and the women all asked how I'd accomplished it. I felt really great on my bike, like I could have ridden more than the 2-1/2 hours+ we rode. And I hung out in my bathing suit for like 2 hours! I couldn't bring myself to get full-on bikini bottoms, so it was boy shorts and a bikini top, but I felt good and think I looked pretty good too. Yes, there's still a bit of fat, but even skinny people have imperfections.
I've been on a couple of dates recently and my weight loss allows me to feel so much more confident than I felt before the loss. In some ways this is challenging to me. Shouldn't we all be judged on who we are on the inside rather than on the outside? That's what I told myself when I was overweight, and it's what I believe. But we really can't control what others think about us. Self confidence is an amazingly important asset, and if being thinner and more fit is what gets me there then I'm going to embrace it.
Finally, today I finally lost another pound (it's been 2 weeks), and have reached the lowest weight I remember being in my adult life. I remember the last time so well. I was trying to lose weight and it was very challenging and the plateaus were kicking in fiercely. I really felt like my body at that time didn't want to stay at a weight that low. I weighed 139 when I went on a VERY vigorous 5-day backpacking trip and weighed 134 when we returned. I literally think I maintained that weight for 1 day!
This time is so different. I'm still not sure I'm totally confident I can maintain this weight loss over the long term (though I'm starting to believe it might be possible), but in the mid term, I know I can lose more. I know how to do it and that it will take time, but my body is ready and eager to achieve its best. Surely a sea change in outlook.