Close to Home...
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Today, I found out that a friends son drowned over the weekend. I was shocked... I can only imagine what she must be feeling. this was one of the friends I rode back and forth to school with for the last year almost and the last four weeks I had of summer school it was just me and her Monday - friday for 4 weeks driving back and forth.
He is my oldest son's age, 16 and was on a camping trip with his dad who he had just recently been reconnecting with...
I had such a hard time believing it was really him that I called and talked to his step-dad and asked if it was true and when he said yes, I started crying on the phone. I can usually control my emotions better than that, but I could not help it.
I went to the viewing tonight after church and after talking to my friend, I looked at her son and started looking at all the pictures and started crying again and then cried all the way home. Big ole lump in my throat type cry.
I thought it was weird for me to cry like that. I FEEL for people all the time, but unless i feel EXTREMELY close to someone, I do not cry that much. Guess I was closer to my friend than I realized, PLUS it was close to my son's age and I just adored that boy... PLUS, my emotions are no longer suppressed, like that once were.
It is different and I am sad that my friend has lost her baby, but it is almost a relief that I feel half-way human again.
Please pray for my friend and her family... her name is Cindy.
Have a great night/day.