This difficult journey will be worth it!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
I shared my struggles on one of my threads and decided I should blog it. Most of my blogs are uplifting and motivational, I am a positive person.
But I'm blue today, at the brink of exhausted tears... truthfully, I am crying. Last Thursday I was a mere 3 ounces above my -50 lb goal and by Sunday I had gained 3 lbs-- for no reason, I've been perfect.
I've plateaued for so long... it's frustrating to read so many success stories and I can't be more PERFECT with my plan. Why is my body so difficult!?! I know as we age it is so much harder to shed... I'm 53.
Maybe the weight gain is caused by stress-- We have been in renovations since February and my house is like living in a storage unit. And my mother-in-law is coming to stay with us and it's ALWAYS stressful when she's here. Since our MBR is being worked on, we are sleeping in the guest room and she's going to be sleeping on a sofa. And, she'll really be under foot because there is no place in my home that isn't piled up. She'll be here about 2-3 weeks and I know I'm stressed out about that.
I also face going back to work next Monday and won't be posting as often. I'm afraid I won't be able to remain disciplined with my exercise... that's one reason I've pumped it up so much lately... I want to form the habit before going back to work. I'm also contemplating at getting back into the workforce instead of pursuing my extremely volatile fine art career.
I'm just really getting exhausted of doing all the right things and yet still continue bobbing up and down with my weight. I know to simply keep moving forward and do the right things... and my weight is supposed to eventually go down. I need to move past this bluesy day and remind myself that even though this journey is a difficult one, it will be worth it.