Wednesday, July 16, 2008
So I start my new job in less than a week. I am really excited I think this will really help me stay on track. I am currently working in the bakery at walmart and can you say temptation. There is almost always something in there to eat. And yeah I know I dont have to eat it but it seems like such a waste to just throw it away. I will only be working 27 hours/3 days a week. I will have so much more time for myself and for exercise. I will have off sat, sun, mon, thur. So I dont see why I cant work out out at least all those days and even tues and friday. I need to write out a set schedule for myself and stick to it. I will be starting school again in a month or so. I would like to get myself on a schedule that way when school start I will just fit it in with everything else.
I have a final tomorrow, that I thought was thursday, so Im really nervous about that, cause I dont think that I will do so well. Oh well I guess to late now, but I will study for a while when I finish this up.
I think I realized why I gained back all the weight I had lost last year. Last year I was down 30 something pounds. I went home for my birthday and while at home my nephew said when are you going to start your diet. I know stupid right he was 9 at the time. But that hurt me so much. It made me feel like I was a little kid again getting teased cause I was fat. I know he didnt mean it and he did say he was sorry. But thats just not something you say to a fat person. I know thats not the only reason. There were some pictures taken that week and I felt like I was still huge, like I hadnt lost a single pound yet. So here I sit back where I was last year at Christmas time. Sad and wishing it would all just melt away like a stick of butter. I know I have a long ways to go and I think with this new job which includes a lot of lifting and bending for 10 hrs straight, which will be a workout in itself that this weight will start to belt off me. I just have to stick it out and not ruin it by eating out all weekend. I think Jeremy is on board since we are going to Hawaii and he wants to lose his belly too. So here I start, my goal is to not eat anything bad the last 3 days of work in the bakery and to sit down and write out a schedule and find some sort of rewards system to help me stick to it.