Getting into Depression
Saturday, September 06, 2008
Well, lets see. How do I start this one. My marriage seems to be failing which is leading to me failing at my weight loss for the right reasons. I've not been eating, at least not been eating what I should. All I can seem to get down is ice cream and fruit. The fruit's not bad, but all I seem to want is junk. The weight is falling off, but not for the right reasons. I know I have to be strong, and do what's best for me...........But what is that? Does anyone really know what is best at this stage of the game? After 36 years of marriage, do I really want to start over again? But do I want to live this life of a lie? So food, this has become somewhat of comfort, but not! Right now, I'm numb, and don't want to fall into the trap of eating myself through this depressive state. I've not been tracking, drinking, at least not the water, and I'm lucky if I even log on here. Just wanted to vent and hopefully this will all work out (not sure which way I want it to work)_
and I won't have gained or lost too much.
Just needed to get this off my chest, since I don't want to talk to my kids about this.