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Getting into Depression

Saturday, September 06, 2008

Well, lets see. How do I start this one. My marriage seems to be failing which is leading to me failing at my weight loss for the right reasons. I've not been eating, at least not been eating what I should. All I can seem to get down is ice cream and fruit. The fruit's not bad, but all I seem to want is junk. The weight is falling off, but not for the right reasons. I know I have to be strong, and do what's best for me...........But what is that? Does anyone really know what is best at this stage of the game? After 36 years of marriage, do I really want to start over again? But do I want to live this life of a lie? So food, this has become somewhat of comfort, but not! Right now, I'm numb, and don't want to fall into the trap of eating myself through this depressive state. I've not been tracking, drinking, at least not the water, and I'm lucky if I even log on here. Just wanted to vent and hopefully this will all work out (not sure which way I want it to work)_
and I won't have gained or lost too much.
Just needed to get this off my chest, since I don't want to talk to my kids about this.
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  • MMRLI11
    I'm so sorry for your pain. I wish I could give you a big hug. Don't worry about dieting or anything else, just take care of yourself and get through this the best you can. Were there for you whenever you need to vent.
    4622 days ago
  • BEACHDREAMS
    I'm sorry--that is such a hard place to be. I pray that you will find your real calm and your true path in this storm. But man, however it comes out--it's a hard path to be on right now.

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    4629 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/6/2008 10:11:27 PM
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