Reality of a new mom
Sunday, November 09, 2008
People tell you all the time how difficult and time consuming motherhood is. You hear it and you agree. You think: "I bet it is tough. I bet you are tired all the time." It's true. It is tough and you are tired all the time. It kills you when you have to go back to work. It even kills you to run to the grocery store without that brand new bundle of joy!
They also tell you it's not about you anymore. That you now live life for another human being. That's true too. And I expected as much. And I'm okay with it. I love being a mother.
I've always heard moms complaining they never had time to themselves and I expected that too..... but not to this level!! Some days I have to stop and think if I had even brushed my teeth!! Showering is now a great luxury and if I finish anything the first time I start it (even if it is brushing my teeth), I feel such a great sense of accomplishment.... it's sad really.
So I'm having a hard time thinking about how I am going to go about losing weight. If I can't get a second to myself to take a shower, how can I find at least 30 min to exercise? I don't really over eat anymore (don't have time!) but what I do eat is convenience food. I haven't been able to cook many good meals. I know I can take the baby for a walk in the stroller but its getting cold out and I don't want him to get sick.
I tell myself this is just temporary. We'll get a schedule down and we'll get exercising eventually, but I don't know if that's true. I underestimated how little time I would have to myself already, what if that never changes? It's even more important to me now to get healthy since I've become a mom. I need to make changes in my life so I can be there for him. He deserves a mom that has as much energy as he does, who plays right there on the ground with him. And I strongly believe in living by example and if I don't eat healthy (and cook healthy for him too), he doesn't have a chance. For now I guess all I can do is stay positive and take any steps that I can toward a healthy lifestyle.
Woohoo for me for being able to blog for 10 min with only one interruption!! MIL calls almost every day to check on "her boy" and she doesn't mean my husband!