Changing my life

Monday, January 26, 2009

I am 43 yrs old I have fought with my weight all my life going up and down to staving myself to making myself throw up ( I thought it was a good idea at hte time before I heard of bulimea) I have gone from 309 to what I am today wich is 193 with several blips in between. I am 5'6" so all that weight was hard on my knees. I feel I have let life pass me by in the last 15 yrs I never married nor had children, altho I do love my nieces and nephews. I sat and watch my brother lose two of his kids. Trent in 2000 to brain cancer he was 4, and Jeremy lost his battle with cystic fibrocis in May of 2006. They both fought so hard to live yet I was letting life just slip by I know now God has a plan for me I don't know what but I feel it's time to get healthy and get out there and see what it is. My hope is to one day is to help others with weight struggles, but I'm not at that point yet but I'm getting there. Yes it's slower and harder than when I was in my 20's but more rewarding than back then too. I have learned there is no quick fix and you got to exercies. I feel so much better now than I can even remeber. I know this time is my time to get there and see what life is all about.
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    Loved your blog.. I am here to give you support and to ask for it also. We will be fine it just takes time... Remember a lifestyle change is just that.. A LIFE style. Hope to hear from you soon and stay positive. Christine in NY
    4560 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    Thanks for adding me as a friend. I'm here for support.
    4564 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    I know this is YOUR TIME.
    This is a long battle, but we got to do it. I was keeping of 35# for a number of months and then over the Holiday Season I yo-yo'd back up 12# and I'm working now to get it off, but it is sticking like wet cement. BUT, I won't quit, and I know you won't either. emoticon
    4564 days ago
  • no profile photo CHRISFIT1
    Hi Divonna,
    I think it's great that you are starting so young to move from 193 to a weight that's more comfortable and let's you move and dance and enjoy your family without worrying too much about knees etc. I'm 5' 6' also and have been your weight. You'll be surprised how cool it feels to get into that "first " size 12 dancing dress!

    You have a lot of love to give and a plan to give it. That makes a difference too.
    Enjoyed your page and your beautiful photos.

    4564 days ago
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