"I can see clearly now, the rain is gone..."
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Wow!! I'm feeling great today! I've been waiting for this day in the past few weeks. I was very down and going under very fast the last few days; yesterday being the worst. I was feeling so overwhelmed with life! I wanted to be perfect at everything and right away! I was trying to figure out a plan to be perfect at healthy eating (+ including the needs of my husband and 3 kids) , perfect at exercising, perfect at house cleaning/ maintenance, perfect for going back to work as a teacher, perfect at socializing, etc. EVERYTHING
This morning, even if it's actually a rainy day outside, I feel amazing and I see clearly how to balance everything to reach my goals in life... starting with small doable steps. Why do I keep fooling myself; it just leaves me feeling even worst about ME. I can not go from bad eating habits to perfect healthy eating in a day. I can not go from being non-active to jogging in a day. I can not reorganize and clean my whole house on my own in a day. Why do I keep telling myself that I should be able to do that so there must be something wrong with me. Anyway, today is an excellent day!! Today, I plan to make a realistic plan for myself; setting some time aside for myself. You bet I'm going to do everything in my power to keep this clarity and determination as long as I can!