Wise woman Or A foolish one?
Friday, April 24, 2009
I am working on reading the Bible through in a year- (using a Bible in a Year Bible). While reading this morning's Proverbs, it really hit home. It is from Proverbs 14: 1&2.
1. A wise woman builds her home, but a foolish woman tears it down with her own hands. 2. THose who follow the right path fear the Lord; those who take the wrong path despise him.
I have to admit that there are times in my day that I am tearing down my home- either through verbal means to my husband or boys, or physically by not taking care of my home (housework, cleaning, hoeing out, etc.) This is not the type of woman I want to be. I want to be the Proverbs 31 woman.
I don't know if I will ever get to the point where poeple will say: there is a Proverbs 31 woman, or not. What I can do is to strive towards that goal- one day at a time.......just like I am with my goal towards being healthier and more active.
Right now, the hardest thing that I am struggling with is to keep my mouth shut about things. My husband is going to be an R.N., and I told him that because the scrubs bottoms he has to wear are white, he is going to need to wear his "whitie-tighties" for clinicals. "It doesn't bother me" (referring to if others can see his boxers.) I said, "But it bothers you if N. is wearing colored underwear". "It does to me. Would you rather I was checking her out?" "No, I expect you to be an adult and advert your eyes." (He made excuses after this).
I guess there is progress being made. Instead of continuing the conversation, I dropped it. Yes, I am deeply saddend by my husband's response..........it makes me wonder what he is going to do when some of his "co-workers" are not wearing white underwear. I can not dwell on the fact that he might be checking out other women. The only thing I can do is to pray that God will work in his life- that my husband will be set free of this stronghold that is part of his life. I am to love my husband as Christ loves me. That is rather hard....ok, fine extremely hard, but that is what I am called to do.
Those who follow the right path fear the Lord........
Rather powerful when you stop and think about it. I am to do what God commands me to do, even if my husband is not doing it. It makes it very hard to love my husband when he is "jerking off" to other women or checking them out. I have to forgive him........70x 7......I am not allowed to not forgive (although I will admit to having to work through my forgiveness.)
All I can do is pray that God will convict my husband about the sin in his life, and to make sure that I am living a life pleasing to Christ.
Christ never promised a road paved with daisies upon surrendering life over to Him, but sometimes.......I dream (ok, fine........I wish and then buckle back down to the reality of life.)