Monday, July 13, 2009

There was another July 13 that fell on a Monday. It was in 1992. Our summer day started as usual, but little did we know it would end in tragedy.

I got the call as husband and I were sitting down to supper. "Something's happened to your dad." I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach.
Driving to the ER, I felt like everything and everyone was in slow motion. Why were all the cars just poking along?

We finally got there. "We're working on him," they said. "What happened?" I asked. He had just collapsed, I was told. After an eternity, they finally came out and said nothing more could be done. Your dad is gone. They had been trying to get a heartbeat back, to no avail; he had suffered a heart attack.

I looked and people were just going on as usual all around me. The nurse was answering the phone. The cars were going by as I looked out the window. Wait, something was wrong here. Why hadn't the world stopped? Didn't they all know I just lost my dad? But I later realized the world doesn't stop turning when you lose someone.

I felt like a thief had come in the night and took my daddy. I felt betrayed, victimized. Silly, but that's exactly how it felt. Like someone had just perpetrated a crime against me and my family, and we deserved justice.

It's been 17 years today, Daddy. I miss you so much. I know God had a reason for taking you, and one day we'll know what it was. There is certainly a void now that you're gone. You were a jokester, the life of the party. We miss all your old stories. Oh, how I wished I'd sat and listened more closely when you told tales of your young days. I'd just roll my eyes then, and think they were boring. How I'd love to hear them now.

I love you, Daddy.

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    Oh, Kat, in reading this wonderful tribute to your dad and I know that you feel like your emoticon is still fresh for you and your feelings of hurt and lonliness where he is concerned. You had a great relationship with him and that shows. You know he felt you were emoticon in his book. You get to remember all of the wonderful times and the stories, jokes, all the little things that have meant so much to you over the years. That kind of relationship is a real emoticon . Some days feel like emoticon , but there are always those days when the emoticon comes back out.
    Some of us didn't have that and wish desperately, we did.
    Keep all of that alive in your heart and your mind. That is not a bad thing to remember how happy your dad affected your life. It is an important role in a girl's life growing up to have a great relationship with her dad as that is how a girl judges that next "man" in her life.
    This was a beautiful tribute to your father and he will tell you so when you go to see him in the future. Life eternal is a wonderful trip that we will take someday and it really doesn't get better than that. I am so glad I will not have to pack for that trip!! That has to ease your mind that you will see him again and listen to his jokes, stories and have him tell you that he loves you, once again. He will wrap his arms around you and tell you just how perfect a emoticon you are. It is hard to fly with emoticon when you soar with emoticon and you can rest in your mind that he is certainly not soaring with any emoticon , right?
    I hope that you find peace in your emoticon that our Lord and Savior would want you to have. Rest assured, my friend, you were the perfect and emoticon emoticon he could have asked for. That is a "good thing" and he is saying " emoticon ".
    Peace, love and blessings,
    Vicki emoticon
    I will keep you in my emoticon , my friend.
    4346 days ago
    I lost my Dad on June 2nd 1992. He had a long battle with cancer. I think it would have been harder to loose him suddenly the way you did, though. You never got a chance to say good-bye. Not that I really said good-bye all that well. I was 24 when he died. As an older person now, I realize all the things I wish I would have told him.

    I can relate to the feeling of not understanding why the world kept going when he died. Mine certainly stopped. I remember thinking "it's going to be soooo long 'til I see him in heaven. I can't believe I have to live my whole life before I get to see him again!"

    Thank you for sharing this. This is a beautiful tribute to your Dad.
    4387 days ago
    I don't know how to comment or what to say. I just felt i need to send hugs your way. Thank you for reminding me of precious moments to enjoy while we have them. A reminder that we are creating wonderful memories and not delay. A reminder to not sweat the small stuff....thank you for sharing. My heart goes out to you.

    You were blessed that God chose your Daddy to be YOUR daddy....what a beautiful gift.

    jay emoticon
    4395 days ago
  • VRR1970
    What a lovely way to remember your Daddy...I think our feelings are quite similar and just part of being a "Daddy's Girl". It's been almost 5 yrs since mine passed away and I think of him daily. His birthday is the 24th and my niece's is the 25th. You're Daddy sounds a lot like mine too. My Daddy was a cornball that I didn't appreciate until after he was gone. He was a big cut-up and had a beautiful smile. I'd like to think maybe our Daddies are somewhere up in heaven telling jokes to stories to one another since they can't be with us. I sent you big emoticon and lots of comfort in remembering him.
    4395 days ago
    Sorry for your loss!

    4395 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2767107
    So sorry for your loss. I'm sure your dad is looking down right now and thinking what a great daughter he has.
    4395 days ago
    emoticon Kat!! I'm so sorry about your dad!! Today is also a bittersweet day for me, as I lost my grandmother 15 years ago this November, and today is her birthday! I guess today is a very special and equally hard day for the both of us! emoticon I'm always here for you if you ever need me! emoticon Always keep those memories of your dad alive, and know that he is looking down on you each day and he's always with you!!! emoticon Love you, Jen
    4395 days ago
  • no profile photo TREASUREDANGEL
    Oh sweetie!

    I fully understand how you are feeling! Please know that I'm here for you if you need to talk. I lost my Mom it will be 16 yrs in November and it stilll feels the same on the day! I lost my dad 9 yrs ago this past January. Oh how we don't realize until we lose them.

    Many many hugs, I'm so sorry! Be kind and gentle to yourself!

    4396 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Oh Kat, I have tears. What a beautiful tribute to your Dad. What a wonderful man he was for you to describe him so tenderly. I'm so sorry for your loss, but so grateful for your beautiful memories to call upon. You are so blessed to have had such a wonderful Father.

    Hugs, my dear one,
    Cathy emoticon
    4396 days ago
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