So last night was another super frustrating night with my husband. He is really trying to convince me that he will do things different. He went from an F it mentality to please just give me a week to show you I can be better. He is getting a new phone…with a new number. And supposedly he is gonna try harder to stop being a workaholic. I am not exaggerating either. He was at work 18 hours yesterday. He is salary. He is only paid for 8 of those hours. He didn’t see the kids or me at all yesterday. He has been at work for 13 hours so far today. Both kids have now gone to bed. He won’t see them again. I told him I am at my limit now. Our trust is broken. He works too much. He is always angry with the kids and me. And he has women who wont leave him alone. So, something big better happen this week is all I am gonna say. It went from him saying he wants to go to me saying I am not sure that I want you here at all.
So with all that excitement it doesn’t surprise me that I was irritated today. And then at school it was awful. Our campers this week are hell. I left work hating my job. And it was crazy hot today. My stomach hurt. I had a slight headache. I felt like crap. I knew my physical feelings were related to my emotional feelings so I decided to pick up my mood. I listened to music and look around on this site. Then I decided I didn’t care how hot it was, I wanted to run. Talk about letting the chaos fuel my inner fire! I didn’t run the whole block obviously but I cut my record time of 15 minutes by 2 minutes. 13 minutes around the block!! 5 spurts of jogging. It put my speed average at 3.7mph. Of course I cant figure how to track interval things. But whatever. And then I came back to the house and Erica was so ready to go I couldn’t say no even though I was about to die LOL. So I left the baby with my dad inside cause he was hot too. And off we went. And we ran some more. 5 spurts of jogging. And the clock just hit 16 minutes when we got back to the driveway. Not bad for the second time around and with a 4 year old at that. She was pushing me for a while and then she was exhausted by the time we got home. I was burning up and my breathing was hard and I felt AMAZING! I felt STRONG! I felt GREAT! And I can’t wait to do it again tomorrow.
It sounds like you have your head on straight .I can't imagine how you can think this clear with so much stress but you are on track. You never cease to amaze. You are a remarkable young woman. 4336 days ago
I am so happy you are feeling better and perking up. It's great you take Erica with you, she will grow up loving exercise. You are so strong! You're just doing it no matter what, good job! 4336 days ago
Hey sweetie! I'm glad to hear your husband is making some changes in the right direction. Wow, I can't believe how much he works and is only salary! That is insane! I'm sorry you had a rough day at work, but I glad you ended it on a high note. I think it is so cute you took your daughter with you! What a great way to bond! I am doing great w/ Chalean Extreme. I don't ever dread the work outs. They are tough, but they are fun and it feels so good when I finish! Thanks so much for the goodie! Have a great week!! ~Heather 4336 days ago
Just saw your blog and wanted to say hello! I also wanted to say that you are YOUNG and life is short so please take the advice above and get yourself together for YOU and your children. Whatever happens it will be YOU and your CHILDREN!
YOU NEED TO CONCENTRATE ON YOURSELF AND YOUR KIDS. YOUR HUSBAND IS OBVIOUS DOING HIM SO WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO DO YOU? I KNOW YOU MAY NOT WANT TO HEAR IT BUT BABY GET YOURSELF TOGETHER. YOUR HUSBAND IS TELLING YOU SWEET THINGS TO KEEP YOU QUIET AND LEAVE HIM ALONE FOR AWHILE. DO THAT! WHEN HE SEES YOU ARE TAKING TIME FOR YOU HE CAN DO TWO THINGS 1. JOIN OR 2. LEAVE. BUT WHAT EVER HE DOES REMEMBER YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOUR SITUATION IS. 4336 days ago