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This girl is on fire!!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

So last night was another super frustrating night with my husband. He is really trying to convince me that he will do things different. He went from an F it mentality to please just give me a week to show you I can be better. He is getting a new phone…with a new number. And supposedly he is gonna try harder to stop being a workaholic. I am not exaggerating either. He was at work 18 hours yesterday. He is salary. He is only paid for 8 of those hours. He didn’t see the kids or me at all yesterday. He has been at work for 13 hours so far today. Both kids have now gone to bed. He won’t see them again. I told him I am at my limit now. Our trust is broken. He works too much. He is always angry with the kids and me. And he has women who wont leave him alone. So, something big better happen this week is all I am gonna say. It went from him saying he wants to go to me saying I am not sure that I want you here at all.

So with all that excitement it doesn’t surprise me that I was irritated today. And then at school it was awful. Our campers this week are hell. I left work hating my job. And it was crazy hot today. My stomach hurt. I had a slight headache. I felt like crap. I knew my physical feelings were related to my emotional feelings so I decided to pick up my mood. I listened to music and look around on this site. Then I decided I didn’t care how hot it was, I wanted to run. Talk about letting the chaos fuel my inner fire! I didn’t run the whole block obviously but I cut my record time of 15 minutes by 2 minutes. 13 minutes around the block!! 5 spurts of jogging. It put my speed average at 3.7mph. Of course I cant figure how to track interval things. But whatever. And then I came back to the house and Erica was so ready to go I couldn’t say no even though I was about to die LOL. So I left the baby with my dad inside cause he was hot too. And off we went. And we ran some more. 5 spurts of jogging. And the clock just hit 16 minutes when we got back to the driveway. Not bad for the second time around and with a 4 year old at that. She was pushing me for a while and then she was exhausted by the time we got home. I was burning up and my breathing was hard and I felt AMAZING! I felt STRONG! I felt GREAT! And I can’t wait to do it again tomorrow.

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  • XNANNY
    Counseling, Counseling and more Counseling! My parents had problems that would have ended their marriage if not for the counseling they got.
    4336 days ago
  • GODDESS1011
    Yay I love it when my son and daughter want to workout with me they make me feel soooo much younger and I feel stronger when we are done you keep that fire burning girl.... emoticon
    4336 days ago
  • JLBART74
    Working out with kids is always interesting. Always good to hear that she wanted to go with you and think about it this way. You went back out and did more.

    As for your man. Hang in there and let things settle. Things only seem to get worse before they get better and the worst may yet be over.

    HUGS
    4336 days ago
  • ~PAMELA~
    So happy to see you taking care of yourself. You know the other stuff will work it self out and know matter what... you will feel good about yourself ; )
    4336 days ago
  • DFOLKARD
    You took angry frustrating days and absolutely caught on fire. Way to direct that to a healthy uplifing experience. Stay strong!
    4336 days ago
  • JENALEX1
    Way to run! I am so proud of you! You're beating this thing! You are so strong! You are an inspiration! X)
    4336 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    Great therapy.!!

    It sounds like you have your head on straight .I can't imagine how you can think this clear with so much stress but you are on track. You never cease to amaze. You are a remarkable young woman.
    4336 days ago
  • BUGLET-
    I am so happy you are feeling better and perking up. It's great you take Erica with you, she will grow up loving exercise. You are so strong! You're just doing it no matter what, good job! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4336 days ago
  • LIVESTRONGH2
    Hey sweetie! I'm glad to hear your husband is making some changes in the right direction. Wow, I can't believe how much he works and is only salary! That is insane! I'm sorry you had a rough day at work, but I glad you ended it on a high note. I think it is so cute you took your daughter with you! What a great way to bond! I am doing great w/ Chalean Extreme. I don't ever dread the work outs. They are tough, but they are fun and it feels so good when I finish! Thanks so much for the goodie! Have a great week!! ~Heather emoticon
    4336 days ago
  • DAWN_B
    Yeah! You go girl!! Way to turn it around!
    4336 days ago
  • SKEEWEEAKA
    Hello!

    Just saw your blog and wanted to say hello! I also wanted to say that you are YOUNG and life is short so please take the advice above and get yourself together for YOU and your children. Whatever happens it will be YOU and your CHILDREN!

    Peace and Blessings! emoticon
    4336 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/28/2009 10:11:05 PM
  • BLACKDYMOND01
    YOU NEED TO CONCENTRATE ON YOURSELF AND YOUR KIDS. YOUR HUSBAND IS OBVIOUS DOING HIM SO WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO DO YOU? I KNOW YOU MAY NOT WANT TO HEAR IT BUT BABY GET YOURSELF TOGETHER. YOUR HUSBAND IS TELLING YOU SWEET THINGS TO KEEP YOU QUIET AND LEAVE HIM ALONE FOR AWHILE. DO THAT! WHEN HE SEES YOU ARE TAKING TIME FOR YOU HE CAN DO TWO THINGS 1. JOIN OR 2. LEAVE. BUT WHAT EVER HE DOES REMEMBER YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOUR SITUATION IS.
    4336 days ago
  • IUHRYTR
    Love those exercise endorphins. :) -- Lou
    4336 days ago
  • SHANAHAN00
    That is incredible. Good for you for turning your bad feelings into something positive.

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    4336 days ago
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