Monday, August 03, 2009
It has been so long since I have been on SP I feel like I'm starting all over again. So a little over a year after joining SP, I'm making my way back. I had posted in February how I was struggling with some severe issues with depression and even then I had to force myself to get back on there.
Lately, I have been missing SP and all that it brought to my life. It's not about weight loss, I'm sick of focusing on that. This is reclaiming my life, making time for myself and focusing on things I enjoy rather than letting all of the negatives consume me.
I literally stopped caring and let most of the things I enjoy slip away. Funny thing is, I don't enjoy most of what I eat. When I feel like things are spinning out of control and they sure have this past year, I eat because that I can control.
I don't want to come on here and make a slew of exciting comments about how I'm going to jump back in there because if I don't hit claims or high goals I set I'll be tempted to slink away and nurse my pride. I miss how I felt and I want that back. Baby steps, I have logged my food for today and will focus on that for the week. Next week I'll do a weigh in and go from there.