In The Box
Friday, September 04, 2009
Have you heard the expression about getting out of your comfort zone, or living outside the box? Well, this extra weight I'm carrying has me definitely IN the box. There are some things I will not do this heavy, and some things I will not wear.
Some things I won't wear: Horizontal stripes, Capri's, tank tops, sleeveless blouses, shorts, pleated-front pants, a blouse tucked in my pants, a belt...these are just some of the types of clothes that being overweight keeps me from wearing.
Some things I won't do: Ride a horse, ride a bike, mow the lawn on the riding mower (I'm afraid I'll look like an elephant on an ant to passing motorists, so hubby does the mowing), hike a trail, walk in front of a bleacher-full of people at ballgames, meet hubby's business associates (he says he's fine with my weight, but I'm embarrassed for him), go to high-school reunions, meet old boyfriends (I avoid that last one like the plague. If I see an old boyfriend coming down the street, I cross to the other side!).
Pondering these things, I've come to the conclusion that I'm missing out on a lot of life by being in that box. I want to feel free, liberated, and proud of myself. I want hubby to be proud of me too (although he says he already is). I want to be his TROPHY WIFE! I want him to be able to show me off to his friends and associates!
Oh, how I long to be out of this box...