A hard dose of reality...

Monday, September 14, 2009

I was very excited about my 4 pound weight loss and very proud! Well amidst the joy I realized I had a wedding to attend this last weekend and panic struck. What do I have to wear that fits me now?? Well I had nothing to wear so I left after work on Friday in a quest to find something. Boy did I ever get a dose of reality that night. I visited 6 stores and none of them had something that would fit me...I even went to Lane Bryant. I got very upset with myself...I felt mad, frustrated and down right depressed! I was forced to decline going to the wedding because all I had was a couple of pairs of older jeans that fit me at this time. All I could think was...it is bad enough to go out looking absolutely hideous much less going to a wedding dressed in jeans. I have always dressed well and made sure my makeup and hair look great whenever I go out so this was NOT acceptable to me at all! I pouted for about 2 hours then I gave myself a pep talk...
"Ok Ruth... you ARE doing something about your weight now and you know something else lady?? Rome wasn't built in a day! You knew you were obese when you started this quest and that's why your making the change! You didn't put this weight on over night so be patient girl! It is ok to pout but you have done that and you have been pretty hard on yourself...so....GET OVER IT!! Pick up the pieces, chin up and forge ahead!" WOW I scared myself so bad that I listened! lol! :-)
Well thank goodness the Mom of the groom is my good friend and I made my apologies. She understood and we are still friends.
I must admit I still feel bad for not attending but I didn't plan well for this event and had I done so I could have found something earlier so I was at fault there. I set myself up for a huge disappointment that had a very negative effect on me. SHAME ON ME..But....I AM NOT READY TO THROW IN THE TOWEL!! It was a slight set back but I am still on "Git er' done mode"!! I exercised with a vengeance this weekend and got myself pretty sore but it was a good kind of sore! I stayed on track with my nutrition and I darn sure didn't have any "I-feel-sorry-for-myself treats" to make me feel better. It may have been a huge dose of reality but in a sense it was a good one. I know the importance, now more then ever, that this weight needs to come off not only for my own good but for the good of the people who love me. I am looking ahead and not looking back....ONWARD and UPWARD!!!
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    I'm sorry you missed the wedding and that you feel bad about the clothes. Been there, done that. It sucks, but you are one tough gal. Take it slow, don't give up or give in. We are all here with you and pulling for you. The seemingly little triumphs will soon add up and then subtract on the scale! The OneStopPlus website is great-I shop there often. If you do, google OneStopPlus coupon codes, you can usually get a decent discount code and deferred billing too to apply. Check out the clearance sections by size periodically--I've gotten some great stuff, dirt cheap. My swimsuits wer all marked down from $89 to $20! Hang in there, kiddo! and congrats on 4 pounds gone!!! emoticon
    4332 days ago
  • JASI27
    Sounds to me girl that it is exactly what you needed! : ) A little kick in the pants helps us all out every once in awhile and helps keep up motivated to "forge ahead"!!
    I am very proud of you for not throwing in the towel at that point and remembering that you are worth this!! ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE WORTH THIS!!
    Ever need to talk just email me and we can "get together"!!

    4333 days ago
  • CGREEN717
    I am sorry to hear that you couldn't find anything to wear in time to attend the wedding. I have found that the best place to get clothes that truly fit is off the internet. www.onestopplus.com is a great web site for one of them off the top of my head.
    Congrats on the 4 lbs lost. That's a great start to an even better finish when you get done. I may not be able to be there to physically cheer you forward, but remember I'm there with you in spirit.
    Hope you have a great day.

    4334 days ago
  • SCORPION1352
    Ruth--------You have done right thing, reality is not a nice thing sometimes. I too have had to have that talk with myself.
    Just always remember that You Are Worth It. I pray things continue to go as well for you

    Marty emoticon
    4334 days ago
    Hi Ruth,
    It sounds like it was a challenging situation for you to deal with. I know that feeling of DREAD regarding social situations and either hating what you're going to wear, or not being able to find something that you like. I'm proud of you for bouncing back and changing your focus. Instead of dwelling on feeling bad, you turned it into a positive by exercising and giving yourself a pep talk. GOOD for you! To me, that just PROVES how determined you are to change your life. I know that you will succeed!!I'm proud to call you my friend-
    Doreen emoticon emoticon
    4334 days ago
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