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I'm fighting!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I decided to channel all the anger I have for my doctor and my body which I feel has betrayed me and use it to fight my way back to good health and strength. It really hurts to exercise but I'm doing it because I am not ready to give up and live life in a chair or bedridden in constant pain. I figure if I'm going to hurt anyway, why not at least make an effort to live my life the way I want to?

I fought all the way along the 1.75 mile south rim walk at the Grand Canyon because I had to see it and I know that I will not remember the pain, just the beautiful scene before me. I fight because of all the beautiful places and things I have yet to see and do. I don't know why God hasn't healed me but if He wants me to learn from this and do it myself, I know He will give me strength to do so. I really pray that I can achieve the pain-free body I want because living without hope is so defeating.
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    I can only add my amen to the comments already made. You are not alone not only is God there with you we are here for you also. You hold on and keep fighting with that anger channeled in the direction you have it going.
    I bet the Grand Canyon was awesome.. I have never been there. I have seen pictures.
    May you know today that God is holding your hand. May His presence surround you!
    You are in my prayers! Blessings to you!

    4176 days ago
    Sometimes it's hard to stay strong, isn't it? After the Good Lord spared my life in January 2007, I thought everything would be peachy. Imagine my surprise when I realized that I would live every day with brain pain. I felt sorry for myself & couldn't understand why God would work this way. Why didn't He just take me home with Him? It took a long time for me to get out of that private pity party & see that He wanted me to learn to be stronger, that He expected me to continue working for Him. I'm not going to pat you on the back & say "it'll be okay". Sometimes God wants to teach us things & it's hard,real hard. The only thing that I can cling to is THIS IS NOT THE END, I HAVE A HOME WITH HIM WHERE THERE WILL BE NO PAIN. SO DO YOU, LET'S HOLD ON TOGETHER!!!

    4177 days ago
    That's the spirit! We may never be pain-free, but we can't just stop living. If you feel like you can push through it. No one ever gets to the end of life and wishes they had acheived less, helped fewer people, spent less time with loved ones so they could have rested, or seen fewer of God's creations.
    Missed you by the way ; ) Glad you're back!
    4177 days ago
  • BIGDAD1211
    God will give us everything we need to do His Will. And He healed you because it was His Will. So you keep on fighting. Just remember that You are not fighting alone!
    God Bless you
    In Jesus Name
    4177 days ago
    You just keep on fighting--never give up!

    I think it's pretty smart of you to channel your anger into determination! I can't imagine how hard it must be for you to push through the pain, but I admire you for doing it. Remember, you can do anything with God's help. I know there are days when we think we can't go on, but somehow God's grace is always sufficient.

    Praying that God takes away your pain and strengthens you.

    4177 days ago
  • NANCYCA555
    Stay strong. We're with you.
    4177 days ago
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