Standing Outside The Fire....

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Every time I catch cold I am plagued by Asthma and this week I have to abstain from walking because I can't get enough O2 to sustain me during exercise. Trust me...this is not settling well with me as I have some pretty serious goals I look to maintain and I have never been one to pamper myself in that department. As I have mentioned before once I focus on a goal I seek it with a vengeance! But I must listen to my body and keep focused despite my disappointment right now with my current health status...this to shall pass. Just to give you a little run down on the history of this asthma condition I was diagnosed with Asthma when I was only 9 months old. I am now 55 and have learned to "live" despite this condition. I have always been a person to live my life to the fullest. I think that living with a health condition that could at any moment rob you of your life, puts things in a different perspective for you. I have exercise and allergy triggered asthma so when I was very young and very active I drove my parents nutty! I was allergic to everything, dust, hay/straw, animals, trees, weeds, pollen,molds....basically anything that lived on the earth triggered my asthma condition. But was I going to let that stop me???? NO WAY!!! I was my Dads best "chore boy" playing in the barn, helping milk our Guernsey cattle, helping his Chester White sows bring their piglets into the world, loving all the new born kitties, playing with our dog, riding on the back of Dad's tractor while he worked the farm ground and the list goes on and on. Thank God I had parents that knew my compassion for the farm and the animals and they allowed me to do this even though it meant my Mom might be up walking me on the front porch to get my air in the wee hours of the morning. God bless her...she really went through so much in my younger years. So many times she thought she would lose me but I always managed to persevere with her TLC and the care of my Grandma, my Mom's mom, who lived with us who was an LPN.
In my high school years I played every sport and excelled in many of them, I sang and went to contests for my singing and battled breathing techniques for that but managed to get 1's in state contests. I was just plain active in everything, I refused to let my Asthma alter my life in any fashion.
I thank God for my strong constitution and for the "flight or fight" response that he has gifted us with! I choose to stand up and fight for my life instead of living in a bubble and be satisfied to watch life pass by me from a safe spot. I would rather die doing what I love to do then to live my life according to my illness. My family has learned to accept this about me and respects my wishes knowing that I am living a much happier life this way. My poor allergist that I have had now for the past 28 years has learned not to lecture me about NOT LETTING MY DOG SLEEP IN BED WITH ME! Sorry Doc save your breath and pass me the pills cause that is just not gonna change! Not having my Shih Tzu in bed with me would be like sleeping without a pillow!!
There is a song that I live by...it is sung by Garth Brooks called "Standing Outside the Fire" I will provide for you the lyrics so you can see why standing outside the fire is not something I plan on doing with my life.

"Standing Outside The Fire"

We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk the tables being turned

We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always comes with getting burned

But you've got to be tough when consumed by desire
'Cause it's not enough just to stand outside the fire

We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall

We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all

They're so hell-bent on giving ,walking a wire
Convinced it's not living if you stand outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

There's this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can't abide
Standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

I guess that pretty much sums up my life although I would like to add just one more thing.

This is a quote by Cadet Maxim that I adore..

"Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. "

What a beautiful thought to live by....Life is ours for the taking...don't let it pass you by!

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    Hope you're breathing easier today my friend! Love this blog. You are a real trooper and fierce spirit! I know what you mean about sleeping with the furry ones. I'd take a gallon of pills before I'd give up that little purring pal of mine. (Snaps follows me like my shadow and sleeps ON me every night) Although I don't like much country music, I did dig the lyrics on this one!

    Hope your day is full of deep and easy breaths!
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    wowwwwwwwwwwwww thank you for sharing that quote,

    4318 days ago
    It's funny you mention that bit about the allergist. I was having some serious sinus issues last year, so they decided to do a full panel on me. She said here's the spot where the cat/dog allergies would show (when she was sticking me with the needles, prior to the reading), and I said to her, well, it doesn't matter what that reads, because the animals stay. She was like, well, we'll see. I was thinking to myself, um, no, we don't have to "see". I'll take whatever drugs are necessary or live with the congestion, but the animals STAY.
    4318 days ago
    Love the quote! Good blog, my friend.
    4318 days ago
    Hi Ruth,
    I'm so proud to call you my friend! Thanks for posting such a great blog, and I REALLY like that quote! I think that you're an amazing woman and you choose to live life on YOUR terms!
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    4318 days ago
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