HAVE TO LIGHT MY FIRE!!!! Unsuccessful Year....
Monday, October 26, 2009
Hey Lovely Diva's,
I am writing today b/c I am having a difficult time finding my spark again! I mean it's so bad that I was depressed about my weight & called out of work today. I was soooo disgusted with myself. I gained 4 pounds last week. I felt so ashamed of myself & so pissed with myself that I ate foods continuously & they weren't bad foods but it was just adding on calories for no reason.
I laid in my bed last night & thought about how this has been such an unsuccessful year. I started in May & only to be 10 pound heavier than when I started. I am going to be off today & tomorrow for mental days to get myself together. I look at the success that others have made on their journey & how I would've been at my goal weight by now. I should have been in my size 10s by now. However, I can't really dwell on why I have not reached my goal but what I need to do to get me there.. I am going to eat healthy today & I am going to workout today.
I know that something has to turn around b/c I know I can't continue to gain weight. I can't continue down the road that I am on. So I am trying my best to re-ignite my spark b/c I honestly don't like the way I feel right now.
**DIVA TIP OF DAY**
"You can't put the FIRE into someone but they have to have the FIRE in them!! Do you need to re-light your FIRE????" Today I light my FIRE!!!