Big Fat Liar's Ups and Downs
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
I've been hard pressed lately to stick with my honesty resolution. Or rather, I'm doubtful of my honesty. I've been a little on the down side for the past few weeks.
I haven't exercised as much, I've imbibed a bit more than was HONESTLY necessary and my sweet tooth has taken over my mind a la "Invasion of the Body Snatchers". Seriously, all I can do is point to sweet things and open my mouth. I'm like a Wino-Chocoholic Donald Sutherland.
If you read about depression and weight loss, it has 2 effects, you either lose, or you gain. I haven't read anything about maintaining. So my question is, why can't I lose?
My depression has led to weight loss in the past, so of course now that I care... I'm gaining.
Maybe that's it.. it's in inverse relationship to how much you care.
I care if I lose weight, I'm depressed, I gain.
I don't give a crap about my weight, I'm depressed, I lose. I bet it works especially well if you're already thin!!!
BLAST YOU, MURPHY'S LAW!!!
Since I'm on the upswing now and headed into brighter mental and emotional territory, I'm feeling especially upbeat about this next phase of my healthy living challenge. I didn't gain TOO much the last 3 weeks, only 2 pounds, and I know I can get back into the swing of things, but now - and here comes the honesty part - I have to have a plan for the next time.
We women are prone to these waves... so in the interest of honesty, I'm trying to come up with a way to work around the effects of depression, or at least minimize them.
I'm looking into a yoga class. I've heard great things about yoga and women's normal emotional highs and lows. And I've enlisted the help of a friend who is also trying to lose in the hope we can help each other through the next one.
I'm open, as always, to advice. If anyone has some tried and true methods of beating the blues off with a stick or worse, please let me know!!!
In the meantime, I like to think that sometimes, depression is really just for rest and it helps us tackle what could be our next great adventure.
I'll let you know how that theory works out.