What if nobody hires me?
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
I've been sitting here wallowing in self-pity. I don't know what I want to do "when I grow up". Lots of jobs sound like "fun". But I've applied for at least 20 positions since I found out I was going to be laid off, and I haven't gotten even one phone call. And that's really disheartening.
And....they posted a couple of "openings" that will only be open to people being laid off. I suspect probably nearly all 300 people who are getting laid off will apply for them. I wasn't sure if I should or not, since I really don't like my job/company too much.
And when I talked to DH about it, he urged me not to apply.
I told him that I had to keep all avenues open, since I need a paycheck (in case you don't remember, I am the sole breadwinner for our family of 3). DH told me that he was going to "work really hard and find a job--I'll take anything." That gave me hope. But he hasn't applied for anything yet, and it's been over a week. So....I did send a "letter of interest" regarding the two positions. I know the competition will be fierce, and I don't think I'm even really qualified, but I figured I'd better try anyhow.
Then I started imagining myself getting "rejected" for those jobs. Of course, like I said, probably every single person who is getting laid off will at least try to land one of those jobs, so my odds are slim--intellectually, I know that. But it'll just be another blow in this layoff saga....
I'm scared. I know I'm actually sitting pretty good compared to a lot of job seekers out there. But....I'm old, I'm overweight, and I'm an introvert.
And what if nobody hires me?????????