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Yes, I'm Still a Big Fat Liar

Monday, February 15, 2010

For three weeks I've gone to the gym.
And for three weeks I've sabotaged my efforts with a drink after I get home from work.
And then another.
And then another.
And if anyone is watching, I'm not putting it in the food tracker.
There is no booze in my food tracker.
There should be A LOT of booze in my food tracker.
There's chocolate that should be in my food tracker.
There's whole cheat days that should be in my food tracker.
Why is it so hard to be good?
And why am I so dishonest?
It's one thing to eat a piece of chocolate, or have a cheat day.
It's something else entirely when you eat that chocolate and have a cheat day and then try to pretend it didn't happen.
Oh yea. I am BAD!!!
So there it is. This is as honest as I've been in three weeks.
Give myself a slap on the hand and keep at it.
I will try to keep at it without sneaking in a glass of wine.
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  • JOYCEHICKS
    Sounds like you don't have the motivation or will power for losing weight right now. I've learned over the years that you definitely have to want it badly before you are true to yourself and stick with a diet plan. If you are trying to make a change to yourself for someone else, it won't work. You have to want it for yourself, no matter the reason as long as the reason motivates you to stay on track. With so many lbs to lose, I have decided NOT to "reward" myself until I have lost a significant amount. Currently, I'm only down by 8-9 lbs and I have about 70 to go. So, every ounce counts right now. That means - no drinking, no desserts, no rich foods. I just can't afford to pack on any ounces/lbs right now. So, it depends on where you are within your goal as to whether you can "sneak a glass of wine" or not. Maybe if you're not that motivated or disciplined, you can give yourself short-term goals and small rewards that will enable you to keep on track. GOOD LUCK! emoticon
    4188 days ago
  • SHIMMYHIP
    Hey there KALEWI2. At least you're being honest with yourself now. Just start fresh TODAY. If you're gonna have wine then you just have to count it in your aloted calories. Another thing, you have to ask yourself why you are sabotaging all your efforts. What is holding you back? Everyone has bad days. I know I have. I had two drinks
    Valentines Day and was scared to death b/c I had not had a drink since I started SPARK. But even though I was scared I enjoyed my drinks and let it go. Plus I have to admit I had been eating less calories a few days before I went out.
    The point I want to make is that I have done the same things you talk about. I have rationalized to the nth degree. This time around I know its time to take care of me for no one else will. Okay I don't want to sound preachy just no you're not the only one. I'm rooting for ya. Don't give up!!!!
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    4188 days ago

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