Thursday, March 25, 2010
First of all, I have FINALLY got the scale moving in a downward direction again! After weeks of being stuck within the same 1-2 pounds, I upped my cardio this week and it seems to be paying off. Despite some not so healthy eating choices this week (my husband has been home from work 2 days and he is always a bad influence...) I have been more than making up for it with the increased activity. Today, he's home sick from work again, and so I'm planning to take the opportunity to go to the gym without my son and stay as long as I want. Yay!
While I'm on the elliptical or the weight machines at the gym, I always have these thoughts. Like, WHY does it make me feel inferior to see some little skinny girl running twice as fast as me? And WHY does it make me feel like a wimp to have to move the weight lighter on the weight machines? For some reason, even though I KNOW that I should just be measuring my progress against myself, I feel bad when I see (as I did on Tuesday at the gym) a guy who's probably my mom's age getting off the tricep extension machine having pushed the weight ALL the way to the bottom, when I can only do 35 lbs. :( Oh well. I have to focus on what I've achieved.
When I first started going to the gym, I got on the arc trainer (the machine I use most often now for cardio) for 10 minutes, felt like I was going to die, and had sore legs for 3 days! Now, I can do that machine relatively easily for 30 minutes, and could probably do more if I had the time with everything else I do. I've upped the weight at least once on every strength machine, and several of them many times (although that's a whole other post, about goals for strength training and how you know when you're lifting "enough" since my goal isn't to be a bodybuilder! but I digress...). I know I'm making positive progress for ME, and that's what counts. The numbers on the scale feel good, but honestly, what I'm striving for is to be healthier, and I know my workouts are helping me achieve that.