BAFLEYANNE

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Thursday, March 25, 2010

First of all, I have FINALLY got the scale moving in a downward direction again! After weeks of being stuck within the same 1-2 pounds, I upped my cardio this week and it seems to be paying off. Despite some not so healthy eating choices this week (my husband has been home from work 2 days and he is always a bad influence...) I have been more than making up for it with the increased activity. Today, he's home sick from work again, and so I'm planning to take the opportunity to go to the gym without my son and stay as long as I want. Yay!

While I'm on the elliptical or the weight machines at the gym, I always have these thoughts. Like, WHY does it make me feel inferior to see some little skinny girl running twice as fast as me? And WHY does it make me feel like a wimp to have to move the weight lighter on the weight machines? For some reason, even though I KNOW that I should just be measuring my progress against myself, I feel bad when I see (as I did on Tuesday at the gym) a guy who's probably my mom's age getting off the tricep extension machine having pushed the weight ALL the way to the bottom, when I can only do 35 lbs. :( Oh well. I have to focus on what I've achieved.

When I first started going to the gym, I got on the arc trainer (the machine I use most often now for cardio) for 10 minutes, felt like I was going to die, and had sore legs for 3 days! Now, I can do that machine relatively easily for 30 minutes, and could probably do more if I had the time with everything else I do. I've upped the weight at least once on every strength machine, and several of them many times (although that's a whole other post, about goals for strength training and how you know when you're lifting "enough" since my goal isn't to be a bodybuilder! but I digress...). I know I'm making positive progress for ME, and that's what counts. The numbers on the scale feel good, but honestly, what I'm striving for is to be healthier, and I know my workouts are helping me achieve that.
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  • TXDREAMSPINNER
    I have a real problem with this same issue. I have not joined a gym and this is part of the reason. I used to go to the park at odd hours to walk because I did not want anyone else looking at me all sweaty and jiggly and judging me. The fact is, most of them are not even paying attention to you because they are focused on their own workout. Keep doing what you are doing. It is working for you and before you know it you will be the skinny woman others are intimidated by.

    Keep up the good work!
    3999 days ago
  • SHIPESTA
    I've done that a few times too - thankfully the gym I joined is all women and so far, they are all SO NICE! I think I wrote about it a couple of weeks ago that I was on the treadmill next to a skinny little high school girl...I was actually jogging on the treadmill - all 220+ pounds of me at the time. I'm wiggling and jiggling and doing my thing...not really going fast, I think I was like at a 5 or something - but she kept checking my timers and my speed and adjusting hers. She was not going to let this hunk of woman beat her out and work harder than her.

    It really put it into perspective for me...I was just pushing myself as far as I could, but this girl who is half my age and 100+ pounds lighter than me was making sure I didn't outdo her...someone wrote on here once that if you were sitting on the street eating an ice cream cone, someone might drive by and think "dang, look at that fat girl eating an icecream". But if you were out taking a walk or trying to jog or at the gym and someone went by, the worst they can say is "dang, look at that fat girl trying to get in shape"....that actually gives me motivation because I'm no longer scarfing that quarter pounder, I'm working it off!

    Good luck and I hope you get a ton of time in at the gym today.
    3999 days ago
  • CATFISHGIRL
    I know what you mean! And its funny- because even if you KNOW what your'e feeling isn't logical- you still feel it. There is no avoiding that.

    But advice for next time... maybe turn it into something funny. When you hear that crap rattling around in your noggin, imagine the weights crashing down, or the skinny chick flying off the treadmill (think AFV). Not the most KIND thing to do, but it makes my twisted brain happy :) emoticon
    4000 days ago
  • NERBIE318
    You can't compare yourself to other people at the gym. You are there, and you are working your hardest and that is all that matters. When I am at the gym I don't judge anyone because the fact that we are all there, working on our fitness is awesome whether we have 100 pounds to lose or whether we are maintaining.

    We never know if that skinny girl on the treadmill used to be overweight and got skinny by working hard. I use that as motivation!

    Keep up the great work and keep getting stronger!
    4000 days ago
  • KARVY09
    Just do what works for you. You WILL be moving the thing on the weights in the heavier direction and you WILL be rocking the elliptical faster than the skinny girls. You'll get there!

    Keep it up!
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    4000 days ago
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