Why did I do that?
Monday, April 12, 2010
Last week started off the same as every other week. I did groceries, came home and packed individual servings, got snacks set up, set up my workout plan for the week. After 5 months this is routine and doesnt take very long. I made a nice dinner and we decided to relax and watch a movie. Tuesday came and went and got involved with spring cleaning, ate what I was supposed to and had a real good day. Wednesday came and went same as Tuesday. Thursday and Friday spent the day painting and cleaning out closets and the basement. Well I wake up Saturday and what did I find was missing in my whole week? The fact that I did not make any time to do a workout, I did not go for a run once, no tae bo, nothing! Granted I guess you could say that I got plenty of excercise carrying things up and down the stairs, scrubbing walls and floors etc but preparing for a half marathon in October and being so steady and consistent with excercise the last 5 months I could not believe it. I spent the weekend wondering what happened to me. I felt like I was in a parallell universe, lol! This morning I woke up with a whole new perspective. I got up and ran 2 1/2 miles, came home and ate breakfast then did another 30 minutes of tae bo. It then came to me that I had been burnt out and bored and that I found joy in doing spring cleaning. I was still moving but it was unstructured and the change of pace did me good. I realized that I had been working so hard at being disciplined and preparing for my race that I did not allow myself to think outside the box. I did not allow myself any change or diversion and I was just plain old tired and bored. I found on my run this morning that it was not a job it was indeed fun to see the ocean and the birds and feel the wind on my face. I found that doing Tae Bo I enjoyed the way my body felt when it was kicking and punching. I liked the fact that I was sweating and feeling it. I realize now that just because I did not do a structured workout everyday last week I still did not sit around and be inactive. I also realized that sometimes I still put so much pressure on myself and look at what I see as success or failure in black and white. I am so happy that this happened and so early in the game for me. I am glad that I did not beat myself up like I would have in the past. That I looked and found the positives and am ok with that.