Wednesday, July 07, 2010
Instead of sleeping last night, I relived much of my life, all the trials and heartbreaks I've endured and discovered how much the strength and love of God have sustained me and made me such a better person. Without Him I would probably be an alchoholic or on anti-depressants or at the least a very unhappy person but that is not the case. I actually began to be filled with joy and peace as I basked in His presence. I saw in my mind the times there were only one set of footprints when He was carrying me and even though at the present there are two sets, I am leaning on Him always. I also saw in my mind's eye a huge boulder that losing weight has become, blocking my path so I can't go through or around but as I watched, it shrunk to a small rock that I know I can beat. The whole process was so empowering! I have a glimpse of the love and power of God in my life and was able to let go of fear and guilt and focus on Him. It was easy to eat better today and leave my future to God. He's already brought me through so much, losing weight should be fairly easy!
I hope everyone who reads this will put their goal of losing weight into perspective and not let it become that huge boulder that cannot be moved. You are strong if you have survived trials and hard times already, you have access to great power in a loving God and you are so worth it!
This is just a little of what went through my head in the wee hours of the morning and I know I'm not communicating it very well but I wanted to try to get it down in print and hope it encourages someone to see that they are worthy to be loved "as is" and because they are loved to find the power and strength to become better.