today i'm grateful for spark people!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

To all my fellow sparklers who read my blog, shared encouraging words, thier own stories, and gave me hope to keep going, THANK YOU!!!!!!! I was really having a rough day yesterday and not quite sure I wanted to post the blog, but something inside me just said DO IT!!! I'm so happy that I did. I've learned that if I don't give it away I can't keep it. So while all of you helped me, it is my hope that I too helped someone who was also struggling. It's hard to let myself be vulnerable to judgement, criticism, etc, etc, all those "bad" things I always play in my head that makes me afraid to share. Growing up I had unfortunatley learned that if I shared my true thoughts and feelings they would be held and used against me at a later time. My family didn't ever share feelings and in fact didn't show any feeling other than anger. Now yesterday's blog is definitly not something I would share on a facebook or myspace page but through everything I have read that other's here on spark people have shared and things I have shared previously, I felt comfortable enough to share some pretty intense and personal stuff. I know that this too shall pass and I won't feel this way FOREVER!!!! Although I'm still feeling crappy, today I am grateful that I found Spark People and all the wonderful friends I have made.

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p.s. last night instead of crawling into bed and feeling miserable I was inspired by all of you to FINALLY finish my vision collage! It's wonderful, spectacular, motivating, and most of all It's all about my goals!!!!!!!
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    You. Rock.
    3982 days ago
    I'm so glad you were able to post the blog. I have found that SP is a great place to share everything because while I have the best of friends here, they don't know me. Odd I know, but I so get why you wouldn't post yesterday's blog anywhere else. The support from this site is amazing and I'm glad it was there for you.

    I hope today is better. Absolutely awesome that you finished your vision board. It looks amazing.

    With everything that's happened in the past year, you will have good and bad days. And the bad days will be bad, but they too will pass. It's hard to deal with everything, but remember that sometimes you just have to let it go... even if it involves family. It will get better.
    3985 days ago
    You have such great strength of character and are a true inspiration to others. Love the collage too! emoticon
    3985 days ago
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    yay! glad to here your doing a little better and you collage looks amazing!!! emoticon
    3985 days ago
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    3985 days ago
    We all love you and you can anything and we will listen. I agree that I would never share anything on FB but on SP I never keep my mouth shut. I grew up like you did and I totally understand where you are coming from. They can't hurt us anymore! Congrats on all your self discovery.
    3985 days ago
    Isn't Spark just the best thing ever!?!? :-) emoticon

    This is definitely a safe place where you can discuss anything and everything under the sun. I feel free to share parts of me on here that I don't share with others and have never once experienced anything other than love and support. So glad you are finding the same to be true!

    And as you said - I'm so glad that our paths crossed each other's as we are on this journey!

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    3985 days ago
    I completely agree with you. The losing weight has been awesome, but the fact that I can write out and deal with all the other things that are going on has been even more important. I am so happy that you feel that same way and I know exactly what you mean about sharing your feelings and thinking they would be used against you.

    It takes an incredible amount of strength to tell people what is really going on and you did it! It helps you and it helps all of us because we know we are not alone. So that is what I have to say, we should be thanking you for your honesty and strength. Way to go you!
    3985 days ago
    blog it all out. we are always here to listen!!!
    hope today is a better day!
    3985 days ago
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