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Why should I feel I don't belong?

Thursday, August 12, 2010

I used to go to the gym fairly often, mostly for yoga. I used to LOVE to lift weights when I was younger. I loved to lift weights at physical therapy (4 knee surgerys, three pulled hamstrings, you get to know people.) It was like having a personal trainer that my insurance was paying for!! I muscle up right away (for a chick) and I LOVE the way it looks and feels.

But...
at the gym where our family belongs, I just don't feel like I "belong" in the weight room.

So my husband said he was going to go to the gym tonight...

I was just watching today's Oprah that I taped, I guess it's a re-run from November, about these people who have lost massive amounts of weight.
and it's raining here...
and I was thinking ...
(and sort of disgusted at the weather? myself?)
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that I couldn't walk today, although, I saw someone walk by in much heavier rain than now and she was using that new fangled thing... an umbrella... don't know if you have them where you are...

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and it isn't my strength training day...
and my husband said he was going to the gym tonight...
and...
I don't know...
I just popped out...
I said, "I think I'll go with you."
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OMG!! What was I thinking?!?

Don't get me wrong... I've been doing strength training at home. I have a yoga mat, free weights, big and small therapy ball, resistance bands, plus I'm doing two different SP videos using body weight only.
And I have been seeing results

But I said, "I'll go too."

So now what? I can't back out...
Do you think I need my knee brace on a treadmill? Level, even bed so I don't have to really worry about knee instability, but, maybe I should wear it anyway?
I haven't been on a treadmill since I tore my ACL...

I don't know... I just don't fit in.
I know what I'm doing. After I was a patient at Physical Therapy, I WORKED there for several months, TEACHING people to do exercises... But for the life of me, I can't figure this out.
I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack...
about the gym...
what a wuss I am...
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  • TURQUOISELOTUS
    Remember the wise words of SARK, "You are welcome everywhere!" Hey, if you've paid for your membership... you so deserve to be there!

    Gyms can be intimidating, but people are there to work out. To get fit and healthy, which is part of your healthy lifestyle, so you more than deserve to be there, doing your exercise-thang. Most people are focusing on their own workout. Oh, maybe some are there to see and be seen, but that behaviour is passe these days. You can tell 'em I said so, lol.

    Most folks are concerned about their own flaws, so go, enjoy yourself. And listen to your body to make sure you aren't overdoing or injuring yourself.



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    3699 days ago
  • MOCACHOC
    I really don't care that I dont fit in at the gym, I'm there for me and not other people. I focus on what I need to do for me to get where I need to be. It's totally your decision and no you can't back out on your husband. Yes, take your knee brace and start out slow.

    Make it a great weekend.

    Peace and Love
    3699 days ago
  • ELSIE_BEE
    I found myself a gym where I DO fit in. Old people? Check. Fat people? Check. Disabled people? Yup. Ripped, sweaty guys who grunt a lot and check themselves out in the mirror? Not so much.

    No one pays me much mind there and that's the way (uh huh, uh huh) I like it.
    3699 days ago
  • DERTREFFER
    It's not being a wuss to not feel like you belong in a gym! I know for myself it can be intimidating to go, no matter how much I exercise at home. I find that the more I go, the better I feel, just like in any new environment.

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  • ONEKIDSMOM
    Just take it easy and do what you CAN. Put pride aside, and listen to your body... and it will get easier the next time. I think "going back" is hard, but once you walk through those doors, I'm betting you'll start feeling that old sense of belonging!



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  • TREYSMOM4
    You are not a wuss!!! Look at all that you do!! I'm not sure why you would feel so uncomfortable, as you said yourself you know what your doing, and even taught there!! No reason to feel insecure about yourself, or what your doing for yourself!! You should feel proud!! Maybe it is not them you don't fit in with, but them who don't fit in with you?? If you decide to go, take deep calming breaths, and remind yourself that you deserve to be there just as much as anybody else!!

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