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Surprised myself...

Saturday, August 14, 2010

So early this week I get that ... feeling...
that caged panther feeling...
everyone and everything p!$$es me off...
hungry, hungry, hungry....

Even without tenderness in the sisters (an homage to Teenybikini ;-) I know it's TOM coming to say hello.

... and I KNOW what's going to happen next...
eating, eating, eating.
I usually hide when I do this. I step around the corner in the kitchen to eat the chip or the cookie. I don't want anyone to see this shameful binge behavior.

So THIS time, I started eating stuff that I didn't want to eat, that I knew I shouldn't eat and instead of hiding, I said to my husband, "You gotta help me here. You gotta save me from myself. I don't want to eat this sh!t."

and he just stayed in the kitchen with me and I ate some grapes and I was okay.

but I stopped myself... with help, but I ASKED for help...
This from a former binge/purge eater.

I guess it doesn't sound like much when I write it down like that, but it was HUGE.

So, anyway...
how's that for a lame ending to a blog?
good night all...
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  • ELLENSANGEL
    Every step in the right direction is a BIG step. Great job.
    3570 days ago
  • TEENY_BIKINI
    Asking for help was one of the hardest things for me to do for a long time. It takes a lot of courage.

    And that is what you have, especially with the whole eating/not eating thing. I am very, very, very proud of you.

    Way to put it out there, gorgeous.

    XO
    3911 days ago
  • SNAPPY_MOM
    Fabulous! I should have done that yesterday. I ended up eating 3 icecream bars. I would have had more but that was all there was! Next time, I am going to call for help. So great!!!!
    3928 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6514410
    OMG! How amazing for you! What an accomplishment! emoticon
    I do the same thing with my DH. I'm glad that you have that support at home.....it is soooo important!
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    3928 days ago
  • ELSIE_BEE
    For a lot of us, asking for help is the toughest thing to do. Good job in asking and good job in picking a husband who's so supportive!
    3929 days ago
  • LMB-ESQ
    That's a great ending to a blog! You asked for help! emoticon emoticon That's like taking 1000 steps all at once!
    3929 days ago
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