Barbara is still ALIVE sort of…

Saturday, August 21, 2010

My apologies to all for not posting and keeping everyone up to date! I had an ongoing computer malfunction. My keyboard broke a long time ago and I just recently got a new one, and go figure, the new one I bought was defective. Hence I repaired the new one, something I was trying to avoid in first place! That’s life…or at least it’s mine. Not much has been going right this Summer. I’m not complaining, just reporting.

Most of all I’ve been and am ill. I was doing fantastic in June (besides my bad shoulder) and was so happy. Towards the end of the month I began to get severe dizzy spells. I finally went to the doctor and was diagnosed with Benign Positional Vertigo. It’s an inner ear disease which causes vertigo, dizziness, and fatigue, and there is absolutely nothing benign about it. Further recuperation is highly variable in terms of time, if recuperation does occur. What bothers me most is not the dizziness but the fatigue. I have a hard time just keeping up with daily matters. However I am better than I was a month ago. I also was very depressed in addition to the physical limitations. I‘m learning to live with it however.

As if this were not enough I probably got a “bug” a couple of days ago, and am at home in bed with all the symptoms of a stomach flue. On the other hand it may be a severe IBS attack. Whatever it is, I am incredibly tiered and spent the last couple of days mostly in bed, but am beginning to feel better.

Anyway this is how life has been going for me. More has gone wrong, but I’ve listed the worst. Of course it’s miserably hot here in Tucson at this time. Yet I’m surviving. I wont let it get me down. However as far as my online presence is concerned I need to set priorities and use the little energy I have on day to day chores like cooking and cleaning. I made another doctors appointment. I want my health matters more aggressively dealt with. I’ve done some research and am informed and know what to ask and what to demand. Once I feel better I’ll be back online. Advice is appreciated.

Weight wise I was somewhere in the 180’s but am back to the low 190’s. I’m working on that. I think currently if I can just stabilize my weight I’m doing very well.

I sincerely miss everyone. I truly just don’t feel well. The moment I feel better I’ll be back. I’m sorry.

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    emoticon The blog I'm answering to is in 2010, I hope you're getting better now! You know we all have illnesses, but until we walk in each other's shoes, we don't know what you're going through! I hope you have a blessed day! emoticon As much as you can! emoticon emoticon , emoticon Blog! emoticon emoticon That's you! emoticon emoticon
    2259 days ago
    Gosh, so sorry to hear how you were doing in August and that we lost touch...hope things have improved and that the coming new year brings you nothing but good things including good health!
    3869 days ago
  • JENJEN1004
    I'm so sorry to hear that things have been difficult for you. I'm back now after having been away many months and I plan on staying around a long time so I will be here FOR YOU when you get back. I'll be thinking good thoughts for you and sending you love. Rest and take care of yourself. Hugs!
    3934 days ago
  • CHEROKEE1946
    Sorry to hear about all that has been happening to you the last 4 or 5 months. Just take care of yourself and remember we are always here for you if you need. Take care of you and Fleagirl. Hugs Colleen
    3952 days ago
    I'm sorry to hear about your misfortunes Barbara. I am reading this post late, so am hoping that you have seen your doctor in the meantime and have gotten some of this straightened out. Hope you feel better soon!
    3960 days ago
    Hey there...somehow I missed this post from way back. Oooh, I'm hoping that you're getting better. My best to you from way over in Michigan.
    3960 days ago
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    Hey... I am really thinking of you. How come I havent heard hide nor hair of you in months? Shoot me an email or something. I sure do love you.

    3971 days ago
    We're all pulling for you! Feel better soon!
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    3988 days ago
    I hope you get better soon! I had vertigo many many years ago and it is awful. I feel for you. Take care of yourself and hopefully we'll hear from you again soon.
    3988 days ago
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    Oh Barb, I'm so sorry to hear this. I have thought bout you a lot over the past few months, missing you. I hope you recover fast, and I will be keeping you in my thoughts daily for your health to return to you! Stay strong.... emoticon
    3989 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear of all the junk! You've been on my mind and I just stopped by to see how you were doing....I can't stand it that it's getting you down. Hope this eases up so you're feeling better. Sounds AWFUL!
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    3993 days ago
  • CATH5109
    I am sorry so much is going on with your health. I know how depressing that can be--both physically and spiritually. Its great to see your blog and know that you are doing better. Hopefully you will be fully recovered quite soon. emoticon Cathy
    3993 days ago
    Barb, so sorry to hear that you have been ill and that medical help is not doing as good as you'd hoped. Keep the faith, get on line when you feel better. Your health comes first and all of our prayers are pouring out to you so surely they will help.
    I'm so proud of you not gaining much weight back. I was so worried about you and will continue to send prayers as long as you need them. so glad you sent us an update. Keep us posted when you can. Get all the sleep you need. We will be here for you when you need us. kim
    3996 days ago
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    Hey My Spark Mommy

    I am so GLAD to hear from you.. I am so sorry life has been so rough for you lately. I can not imagine what you are going through.. My dad has vertigo and I see him suffer. Hope you feel better. You will be in my prayers
    3997 days ago
    barbara thanks for taking the time to update us!!!

    I am not sure what it means by "benign", but I have suffered from Vertigo... and it is not fun!!! ugh just thinking about it. I am still always prone to dizziness but the "vertigo" did pass (it took months). I was working at the time, and it was really hard to keep functioning, as it was so unpredictable!! The saving grace for me, was my boss had a bout of vertigo a few years earlier so was very sympathetic. Just be patient with yourself!!! I trust the fatique will pass, although as I said, I don't know the difference of benign.

    I wish I had some advise... they only thing that worked for me was rest when I could and I told gravel... basically because it helped me sleep and helped nausea!

    Glad you got your computers back... but don't spend long infront of a busy screen... do what you can... I hated not being able to read, so consider ebooks, or books on cd.

    3998 days ago
  • CAG931
    It was very good to hear from you. I am sorry things are not going well I hope they turn around soon. Take care of yourself and we will be here when you are ready.
    3999 days ago
    Feel better! Take care of yourself first, we will always be here for you!
    3999 days ago
    I thought you were busy hiking but you sure can't be out there hiking with vertigo!! Eep! It totally sucks that you aren't feeling well but hopefully you'll be feeling better soon. I hope Flea's doing a good job looking after you.

    Glad to see you post. You can see you've got quite a bunch of supporters here cheering for you. Get well soon!
    3999 days ago
    It's so nice to hear an update, but I'm so sorry you've been unwell. Do take good care. Don't worry about the weight, it will come back off.

    Thinking of you!
    3999 days ago
  • JACKIEP1961
    Hey, Barbara,

    It's great to have your presence again - so sorry that you are unwell, but keep with the positive attitude and I am sure you will be on the road to recovery in no time. Make sure you get the answers from the doctor - they can be so unhelpful sometimes but just keep bullying them, lol.

    Take care Spark Friend and keep in touch as and when you can. Feel heaps better soon!

    Jackie x

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    3999 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/21/2010 2:28:30 PM
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    Thank you for taking the time to update us with all that you are dealing with.
    I am so sorry to hear this!
    I will be praying for you and for your Dr.!
    3999 days ago
    Barbara, I'm so sorry to hear that you haven't been well. I've been so worried about you. I am glad to hear that you are still there.

    This has been an evil hot summer all the way around, add not feeling well into the mix, and it's not a surprise that you've added a couple of pounds. Don't beat yourself up, just focus on getting well.

    I listen to a radio show called The People's Pharmacy, and they just recently broadcast an episode on vertigo. You can hear a podcast of the show online at their website:
    /07/29/779-dealing-with-dizziness/ Maybe it can be of some use to you.

    Hang in there, friend, and get better soon. I'll be thinking of you and sending healing thoughts your way.
    3999 days ago
    Oooooh, Barbara ~ I am soooooo sorry that you are having a tough time with lots of things. When I saw you on SP and realized who you are, I was SOOOOO excited to be able to reconnect with you. Unfortunately, it is the same time that you started having problems. I am really trying to hold out my anxiousness for reconnecting . . . . I'll be patient until you get back. I would love to hear from you when you are up to it. Hugs.

    3999 days ago
    I am so sorry to hear that you are going through a tough time right now. I hope slowly things will start to get a little better and it is very important for you to stay on top of you health and make sure that gets fixed up.

    We will always be here no matter if you just drop by once a month or not at all. Take care of you and just try to stay positive!
    3999 days ago
    Hi Barbara! It's nice to see you back but so sorry you still aren't feeling very well. Don't know what to tell you but I'm glad you're going to see the doctor again. You hang in there. This too shall pass my friend. Keep us posted as to how you are doing. Love you, Bonnie emoticon
    3999 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/21/2010 11:51:00 AM
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