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Thursday, August 26, 2010

I have been missing in action for the last couple of days. Or at least that's how it seems. Even though I did manage to check in , I was going through so much, my mind seemed fragmented and my thought process was not firing on all burners.
I had a complete physical scheduled for last week, I got cold feet, cancelled , was very lucky that they could reschedule all the that was to be done for this last Tuesday.
Now this physical is an extensive one. Not just a blood pressure and pap smear.
Every part of my body was poked and probed. I gave up blood for test. I had a stress test. Lungs, heart, you name it and it was done. I had to fast the night before so no breakfast.
It's strange, I miss breakfast at home when I go into the office and get busy and forget to eat. But sitting at the lab, waiting for the test, all I could think of was eating breakfast. Just goes to show when you are idol or bored, food takes center stage.
Well as the day wore on food left my mind completely.
I finally finished up about 2:00. I had been offered some crackers and yogurt, but I just didn't feel like eating.
I left , really wanted to just go home and crawl in bed.
But I needed fresh veggies and fruit, so I headed to my favorite produce stand.
Just as I walked in I smelled the fresh baked donuts. I saw they had a plate of bite sized samples, and they were blueberry. I hardly paused , I was popping the bite sized morsel in my mouth. It was a little bite of yummyness . I saw that they sold for $4.98 a dozen, but you could buy 1/2 dozen for $2.75. I stood there trying to figure out how 6 donuts would fit into my meal plan. I could see one or two, but I am not going to eat a donut everyday for six days. Or heaven forbid two donuts a day for three days, or even worse. Maybe a whole day of donuts.
I could tell my mind was not being rational, i was tired , hungry and I had to leave the donuts for another time.
I bought fresh blueberries instead, plus all the other fresh items that I have come to love. The clerk even gave me some corn on the house because of my lost corn last week.
I stopped at the store for a rotisserie chicken, I was in no mood to cook. They had one little over done, scrawny chicken, looked like a reject, but I was so tired I could not wait for 1/2 hours for new ones. And stopping elsewhere out of the question.
Got home, greeted the dog, washed up and sat at the counter and ate chicken right from the container. Two wings and a piece of the breast. I gave Titan some cut up chicken, a leg. We both feasted on chicken.
I then answered a few phone calls and took a nap. Slept till 7:00.pm.
Later I still was not up to cooking so had one of the new Lean Cuisine steamer dinners. I could not have anything past midnight, still more tests for Wednesday. More fasting, no breakfast again.
So in the .morning, did my exercises and as I was getting out of the shower I put my weight on my right knee, and it went out on me. Pain can't describe, off the chart.
Good thing I was at home and not out walking.
So , I grabbed the bottle of pain pills, took the Oxycodone , Vicodin won't dent this pain.
I didn't know what to do. Do I try to drive to the doctor, continue with the tests, call someone for assistance?
As I was sitting there all these thoughts were running through my head. My orthopedic doctor , Dr. Stevens had suggest a treatment of injections that might give me time before any more surgery. Time to get off more weight.
So I figured the decision had been made, if I am to walk, I have to try what is offered.
I finished getting dressed, somehow get to the car, take more pain pills, I drove very careful, didn't have far to go.
Went on with the scheduled tests. I called the doctor and told him what had happened. He said lets do a a MRI on both knees. So now I wait for the test results.
I see Dr. Stevens next Tuesday. So I hope I am a good candidate for the injections and it will help me. Until then, I have to take it easy. I can do water aerobics, but not water jogging. I have these little rubber/air shoes I ware in the water, cushion my steps and it helps.
Told Titan the long out door walk on are hold for now, but I should be able to take him out to the lawn. Good I didn't ditch all the canes and walkers etc.
So aside from that little bump in the road. I am doing OK.
Today feels like I am back to the normal routine.
I did what exercises I could do. I ate a lovely blueberry pancakes breakfast.
I overloaded the small pancakes with blueberries. Not missing those donuts now. Smile!!.
I got to my e-mail this morning and I had 119 e-mails. That's why I try to get them everyday. i deleted the junk, and saw a lot of Spark ones.
So all my friends and Sparkers if I haven't got back to you, give me time I am working on it.
Oh! I did want to mention. My doctor thought I was shrinking too. That was his greeting to me, "So here's the shrinking women". He had no idea why I was laughing at that remark.
The nurse, Leslie, hardly recognized me with my new red hair. She insisted on taking a new photo for my file. I tried to get a copy of the old one, but she said she don't have a way to copy it. So it's gone forever, Or floating in cyber space.
I will say I have lost weight this week, but in keeping with my superstition , I won't list any number till the official weigh in day, which is Saturday.
Today I am going to enjoy being home, no trips out for anything..
I just had a new shipment of lovely gem stones and beads delivered yesterday, so I am going to have fun sorting and putting them away. It's almost like Xmas when I get a new shipment, the beautiful stones, all the colors, shapes,, my mind starting designing pieces before I have them sorted..
Since the holiday season is the busiest for selling jewelry, I do have lots to get done. But I would rather be busy than sitting around complaining that I have nothing to do and am so bored .
"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain." Maya Angelou.
I leave you with , May your days be successful in all that you do.
Peace and Love, Tisha

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    emoticon good for you for passing on the doughnuts...that had to be very difficult ..it would have been for me.....filled doughnuts have always been my weakness.....or should I say, one of them.*grin* :)
    sorry to hear about your knees..I share the pain, for I have bad knees as well...though mine have never gone out on me..hopefully the shots will work on the pain.

    You are doing so well on your weight loss.......*woohooo!!*

    way to go.......you are emoticon

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    3904 days ago
  • -CHERI-
    I'm hoping this knee thing is only a small bump in the road and recovery is right around the corner. You are doing so good and are such an inspiration for many of us!! Stay strong!
    3904 days ago
  • BETHV10
    Hang in there .... you are doing great!
    3905 days ago
    Tisha, you are doing so good with your weight loss!! I am so impressed. I have bad knees also, Just go easy on them. Hope all the tests come back with good results.
    3905 days ago
    Bless your heart! You've really had a hard time. I have bad knees so I can sympathize with you. Way to go on passing up the doughnuts! Fresh blueberries are so much better for you. You are doing a great job. Keep us posted on your test results! emoticon
    3905 days ago
    When my right knee hurt so bad I couldn't sleep, I didn't walk much at all. I focused on eating only, and walked just for the necessities. I truly feel for you.
    3905 days ago
    I'm so sorry you are having to deal with all these challenges. I hope the tests turn out okay and that you get some relief. The beads sound fun.
    3905 days ago
    Way to say no to the donuts! That would be hard, but it's amazing how much better you feel having made the right decision and exercising self control. Great job!
    Hope you are a good candidate for the injections. The pain you're experiencing sounds awful! :(
    My mom has had 13 knee surgeries and my sister broke her neck a year ago, both have injections done for the pain. I can't even fathom. I often have to promise my mom I won't go hurting myself, this family can only handle so much.
    Hopefully you be well enough to go back to your long walks with Titan - he needs you well too!
    Take care!
    3905 days ago
    Wow, you've had an eventful couple of days. I can't believe you passed on the donuts. You're my hero.

    Good luck with the knee. I had a torn meniscus and it was very painful, but the MRI showed it wasn't extensive, so a steroid shot fixed it right up. Hope that is the case with you as well.
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    Good job resisting the donuts. That can be so hard when you're starving.
    3905 days ago
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