Well it's been long enough...
Saturday, August 28, 2010
My last blog was almost a week ago so I guess it's time to put a little out there. I have so many different things going in my life right now sometimes it's hard to know where I begin and everything else ends. I am a very strong headed person and sometimes people take offense to that so I always end up looking back and saying should I have done or said that? The truth is that this is me. I am who I am because that's the way I am supposed to be. I try hard to not judge myself or others, I just wish that others would try to do the same. It would make life a little more enjoyable knowing that you really don't have to explain yourself to anyone.
The above comment leads to my next story. Yesterday as I started doing my cardio workout off of OnDemand, I was getting a little emotional. Cardioke is what I picked because in the description it seemed fun to just dance and sing and yet still get that cardio in. When the parts came up to start singing and the words were crossing the bottom of the screen caused me to get a little choked up, I even had tears? They were happy tears, I felt lifted, and very engaged with myself. In my head I was thinking "WOW, this feels good to connect with myself finally and to workout to make me healthier and happier!" What was I waiting for? To have severe complications with my diabetes? To loose my vision or a limb? Why couldn't I get to this place before? So many question came to mind as I was thinking to myself about how crazy this feeling was and how good I felt. At the end of the video it only got more emotional. The song that was playing made perfect sense to me. It said that you are right where you are supposed to be, that there is a reason for why you are existing in your current situation and that you are enough...tears ran down all the while with a smile on my face.
I am strong, I am who I am and that is ENOUGH.
I AM ENOUGH!