Let me just be honest:

Monday, August 30, 2010

I love food! Mostly unhealthy food! My weakness is Mexican food! Give me tacos(authentic or Tex-Mex), nachos(with all the toppings, and extras too), burritos(with sour cream), quesadillas, queso, chimichangas, chalupas, fajitas, sophillas, casseroles...and don't forget the soda!

I have been in a backsliding state for months and the scales proves that!

I'm paying for a gym membership that I haven't used in over 6 months! I finally went back the other day, only to last 20 minutes on the treadmill before I was ready to pass out!

I look like I'm 4 months pregnant because of my gut!

I just ate potato chips and had a coke for breakfast!

Speaking of breakfast, I usually don't eat it! Well, with the exception of Saturdays...and that breakfast consists of sausage or bacon, eggs, biscuit, strawberry, grape, or plum jelly/jam, and grits(with butter and sugar of course)!

I want to be healthy and lose weight but sometimes the work to get there seems impossible. (Yeah, I know what you're thinking but I'm just being honest right now. I know people who have lost huge amounts of weight the old fashion way but at times, that seems unrealistic for me.)

My significant other and I are planning a Las Vegas trip next year and I'm afraid of not fitting in an airplane seat...or having to ask the most embarrassing question: "Could I have a seat belt extension please?" Or hitting people with my large rear end!

oooooooooo saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh

I feel better getting that out!!! It's my way of "keeping it real" with myself! This weight lost thing is like moving mountains! IT'S HARD YA'LL trying to get back in the swing of things when you've gone back to the wrong things. At this very moment, I'm having an inner struggle with what I'm having for lunch-HOTWINGS W/RANCH OR SUBWAY! I also want another soda! Control! Control! CONTROL!

I've incorporated minor changes; like not drinking 4-5 sodas a day. I may drink 2 and substitute water or juice when I get thirsty. I've also pulled back from the table. I try not to go for seconds or clean my plate. I have 2 pints of ice cream, butter pecan(my fave) and cookies and cream in the freezer half full because I try to eat nuts and fruit instead. But oh, how I want to eat thee---my setback is I'm afraid they may be freezer burnt! emoticon

I want to lose this weight, I really do! I also want to eat the foods I'm come to enjoy thoroughly! I guess you can say I'm in the valley of decisions! I know what choices I should make but the other choice is so tempting and appealing.

Alright, ya'll be blessed! Until next time---
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  • no profile photo CD2095157
    Your thinking about small changes you can make and that's a victory. I hope you are doing well.

    I've missed you!
    3897 days ago
  • LILWHA1104
    I'm in the same situation except my weakness is fish, I can eat fried fish everyday. I had catfish last night, my mom called this morning to tell me she has some bass left over, I can't wait to get off and get it.
    3905 days ago
    LOL well the first thing we all need to do to help alleviate the mental illness we get from our food is to JUST BE congrats on that!

    Although I do eat great foods and hardly ever eat the junk food, I still must be doing something wrong so I'm with ya.

    God be with us all...Enjoy your day!

    Miss Carrie
    3905 days ago
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