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Struggling

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

August was a lost month. I didn't gain anything, but I didn't lose either. I started the C25K program but then traveled and haven't done anything since Week 1. I did some other exercise, but not consistently or in a focused manner. My food choices were not good. My motivation was nil.

I decided to start over in September. And I did great for two days. Then I went on vacation to Texas. Despite doing a TON of walking, I still gained 2 pounds. That should tell you what my food choices were like. And DH and I had an embarrassing moment at a water park where we realized we couldn't share a tube on a waterslide: the total allowable weight was 400 pounds. DH is nowhere near 210 pounds; I wish he was. But he's got 50 pounds before he gets there. So we switched wives with another couple we were with, and that worked just fine. Still, it was pretty humiliating.

Despite all this, I still don't have much motivation. Yet I'm tired of this rut I'm in. Hmmm. The crux of the problem is that I want to get fit and slimmer, but don't want to put in the work. And I know it doesn't work that way.

Today I did a great job doing everything I know I need to be doing to get fit and healthy. My mood and thoughts about this are decidedly neutral. So I guess I just have to fake it til I make it. I figure if I just keep going through the *correct* motions, the results will get me motivated. At least that's what I'm telling myself for now. Because I'm not giving up.
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  • KITHKINCAID
    So you had a momentary set back in Texas...the first line of your blog says it all..."I didn't gain" - so you're doing SOMETHING right. It doesn't always have to be HARD work. At least it shouldn't have to be. Sometimes we need to just "be" for a while - but we're still making progress. You started C25K - you're doing so well!

    Go back to your fast break goals and just start with the water or something. Pick one thing that you can focus on and build from that. Your spirit will come back - I know it!
    3897 days ago
  • LADYSHERRY
    Sorry you're in a slump. But today is beautiful outside. Maybe the better weather we are having will help to jump start you again. Hang in there emoticon
    3897 days ago
  • SLIMSOLO10
    You sound so like me right now about feeling neutral- I think you are right on with faking it until you make it. I'm trying to be happy with myself that I at least check into sparks every couple of days even on my bad days. We need to be proud of any baby steps we do even though feeling proud is hard right now.
    These things too shall pass.....right?!
    ss10
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    3897 days ago
  • DAISYGRL2
    Don't give up. I like that 'fake it til I make it' attitude. You'll get there!
    3898 days ago
  • PARAMAGIC66
    Don't give up. you did it before, you can do it again. Stick with SP so you can get the motivation you need. Take one step at a time until you are back on track. Slow is better than not at all. emoticon
    3899 days ago
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