Tuesday, September 07, 2010
August was a lost month. I didn't gain anything, but I didn't lose either. I started the C25K program but then traveled and haven't done anything since Week 1. I did some other exercise, but not consistently or in a focused manner. My food choices were not good. My motivation was nil.
I decided to start over in September. And I did great for two days. Then I went on vacation to Texas. Despite doing a TON of walking, I still gained 2 pounds. That should tell you what my food choices were like. And DH and I had an embarrassing moment at a water park where we realized we couldn't share a tube on a waterslide: the total allowable weight was 400 pounds. DH is nowhere near 210 pounds; I wish he was. But he's got 50 pounds before he gets there. So we switched wives with another couple we were with, and that worked just fine. Still, it was pretty humiliating.
Despite all this, I still don't have much motivation. Yet I'm tired of this rut I'm in. Hmmm. The crux of the problem is that I want to get fit and slimmer, but don't want to put in the work. And I know it doesn't work that way.
Today I did a great job doing everything I know I need to be doing to get fit and healthy. My mood and thoughts about this are decidedly neutral. So I guess I just have to fake it til I make it. I figure if I just keep going through the *correct* motions, the results will get me motivated. At least that's what I'm telling myself for now. Because I'm not giving up.