I can do it this time...

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Okay...it's Saturday morning...I sit here at the computer once again getting all excited about really getting back on track this time. Can I do it? Or am I setting myself up...I would like to think the first.

I feel like my mind is in a new place. 6 mos ago I simply lost hope in everything around me and especially in myself. I fell into a deep tunnel and just did the basics to get me through each day. Beautiful summer days I would come home from work and go directly to my bedroom to hide out. So unlike me...But I think I have come out on the other side now...I still have a small urge to go hide sometimes...but I have stronger urges to change myself for the better.

When I fell into my darkness...I found a ring at a Catholic store that simply says HOPE on it. I bought that ring and have worn it ever since...I have looked to that ring many a times to remind me of what it stood for. I had lost all HOPE and I was in search of it. I am happy to say that I feel as though I have found HOPE and now I am moving on to the next level. I am looking for LOVE...

When I say LOVE...I don't mean the traditional one, I mean the plain and simple one of Loving oneself and showing LOVE to those around me. So once again I have bought a ring that simply says LOVE and have place it on the same finger and it resides over HOPE. This represents to me where I am in my journey right now and is a simple reminder of the person I am in search for. I will find her once again. I will come into the light and evolve back into the happy, self-loving, positive woman I use to be. I am bringing myself back! Hugs to all!!!
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    Thanks everyone. I tried to take a picture of my thumb with the rings on it...as my new profile pic...but the words won't come through. Oh well...I know it's there.

    Thanks again for all your encouragement!
    3818 days ago
  • CRIS76
    I am very glad to see you - finding inspiration in something as simple as a ring shows that it is there - we just have to look for it.
    3818 days ago
    Way to go - glad you are ready to renew your journey. Hugs to you and just take it a day at a time. Welcome back!
    3819 days ago
    I love that I am still subscribed to you & get this notification from Spark that you have blogged!!! What a BEAUTIFUL post - I think that is wonderful that you have found Hope and are on your way back to Love. What a great way to remind yourself by glancing down at your finger and remembering....

    And I'm so glad that you are back, sharing yourself and your thoughts with us. I am always here for you whenever you need support! Love ya ~ Renee :D
    3819 days ago
    Dee--You are always my true and faithful...you are always there when I come back and I know I can always count on you no matter what. Thanks for checking in with me. We are the original Survivors!!!! Much Love!
    3819 days ago
    Oh My Gosh Rebecca! It's been so long...I hope you are doing well! Thanks for popping out here. I looked you up today...so good to see you! Take Care and Keep in Touch!
    3819 days ago
  • DEE797
    I am so glad you have come out the other side and returned to us here on SparkPeople. We have missed you. I like the visuals you have in the HOPE and LOVE rings. And how you have kept your faith throughout this time. emoticon
    3820 days ago
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    I'm sorry to hear about your depression, I'm proud of you for doing so well and holding on to your faith. Hope and love are so important to us all. I'm sure you'll get back on track and I look forward to hearing from you! It's good to have you back!
    3820 days ago
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