I can do it this time...

Okay...it's Saturday morning...I sit here at the computer once again getting all excited about really getting back on track this time. Can I do it? Or am I setting myself up...I would like to think the first.

I feel like my mind is in a new place. 6 mos ago I simply lost hope in everything around me and especially in myself. I fell into a deep tunnel and just did the basics to get me through each day. Beautiful summer days I would come home from work and go directly to my bedroom to hide out. So unlike me...But I think I have come out on the other side now...I still have a small urge to go hide sometimes...but I have stronger urges to change myself for the better.

When I fell into my darkness...I found a ring at a Catholic store that simply says HOPE on it. I bought that ring and have worn it ever since...I have looked to that ring many a times to remind me of what it stood for. I had lost all HOPE and I was in search of it. I am happy to say that I feel as though I have found HOPE and now I am moving on to the next level. I am looking for LOVE...

When I say LOVE...I don't mean the traditional one, I mean the plain and simple one of Loving oneself and showing LOVE to those around me. So once again I have bought a ring that simply says LOVE and have place it on the same finger and it resides over HOPE. This represents to me where I am in my journey right now and is a simple reminder of the person I am in search for. I will find her once again. I will come into the light and evolve back into the happy, self-loving, positive woman I use to be. I am bringing myself back! Hugs to all!!!