Yes, 100 pounds lost and there is no reward for their return. So if anyone finds 100 pounds laying around, leave them alone, don't go near them, they are toxic, they will only bring you grief and unhappiness.
I keep saying out loud and in my mind, 100 pounds lost. It's hard to believe. It sounds impossible. But its real. I have been dancing around, yes I said dancing, ever since I stepped on the scales yesterday and it said 232.6. I got on it again to confirm that it was not just tricking me.
This morning I got on the scales again, it's so hard to believe I thought maybe it was all a dream. But the scales said, 232.2. Down a few more ounces. Oh happy days, I did a little more dancing around the living room. Here I am dancing, where earlier this year I could hardly walk.
I look at the walker's that I have around the house and they seem so out of place now.
My daughter asked me why I keep them. I will be having surgery on my knees in the future and I could use them. She said why so many. I have 3. I have a small one by the tub, it helped me get in and out, so as not to fall. I have a nice one with big wheels and seat that I needed for getting out and about. I also had a cheaper one I used to get from house to car, I then could leave it leaning against the carport, to help me get in the house when I returned.
While out I could use the electric carts in the store. No one would take a cheap walker , it was , from goodwill. But it has serviced me well.
Now I don't need any walkers, I don't have to use any electric carts.
I can walk into the stores unaided. Look at the carts and say, not today. let someone else who really needs one, use it. Today and I hope all future days I will be able to walk on my own two feet. walk with no aches and pains, no back ache, no huffing and puffing , cause I can hardly breath, because of all the fat around my lungs. Those days are in the past.
I am no longer on high blood pressure pills. My pressure is 120/70.
I no longer have to hook myself up to a machine at night to sleep. .
I an no longer in danger of becoming a full blown diabetic, my glucose levels normal.
I can take care of my self. At 333 pounds that was becoming a problem
I can take care of my home. I needed help vacuuming, cleaning, I couldn't do much.
I can go out now, with enthusiasm. I enjoy getting dressed and going places. Before it was too much trouble. Nothing fit. I didn't fit in seats. Afraid of breaking chairs. Movies too much walking or climbing in the new stadium seating. Plus I was embarrassed on how I looked.
I no longer felt like I fit in any where. I couldn't stand to see myself in the mirror. When ever I did, I didn't recognized the person that I saw.
But now 100 pounds later, I see a person emerging that is somewhat like the old pre weight Tisha. I am different, for I am older. But in my mind there is a renewed spirit, a feeling of accomplishment and joy. A happiness that had been missing for so long.
In my pre weight days I had , always been very out going and vivacious . I loved to go, was always involved with something. Taking trips, or weekend jaunts.
Then for years that side of me disappear. But guess what, SHE"S BACK!!!!!!!
Now I am involved in activities again. I like to get dressed, no more sitting around in sweats all day. I need to get out now. After a few days in the house I have to go some place.
Since I have my office in my home, I have to find other places to go. Even if its just to the store, the gym, a drive with the dog. A walk in the park. Just out of the house. No more being a recluse.
Today besides my gym time. I am going to browse around some of the resale shops.
I always like to do that. My daughter and I used to go to some of the more ritzy areas with Goodwill's and look for bargains. Could find designer clothes and shoes, hardly worn, we used to have a ball seeing who could find the best deal.
She works now so I am on my own, but that's OK. It's so nice to be able to get out and just do what ever.
Even though I have reached a milestone loss of 100 pounds, I still have a way to go, about 80
pounds. So I can't sit back and think this journey is over. In fact I will be on some kind of journey for the rest of my life. If not losing, it will be maintaining the weight that I choose to be.
Being a food addict I will always have to watch how I approach food . Hopefully the time I have spent learning about foods , what's good for me, how exercise plays a big part in how our body handles the calories we consume, will stay with me though all the years ahead..
One of my Doctors once told me, a calories is a calories. No matter whether is comes from fat, protein, carbs, too many calories and you will gain weight.
So I will continue to eat as I have. Work out as much as I can.
I am confident and determined that the next 80 pounds are going to be gone as soon as possible. My goal is under 200 lbs. by New Years. Goal weight of 145 lbs. by July 31, 2011. I know the last 40 or 50 pounds of fat is harder to lose than the all that obese fat was.
So I close with this quote from long ago."Always bare in mind that your resolution to succeed is more important than anything." Abraham Lincoln.
Love and Peace, Tisha