Thursday, November 04, 2010
I haven't written anything in awhile. I am in waiting mode for the results of my biopsy. The big C has been in my life so long, it doesn't scare me so much as the not knowing. The problem is I am tired. Tired of working, tired of waiting, tired of my BF's family problems and tired of living here. On the upside we found a really cool place and all it will take is 600.00 to sign the contract. It's in the country and I felt so at home out there...near where we've gone hiking....the guy is willing to finance it himself. We can get the money but the family problems may kill the deal. I didn't realize how much Jack was supporting his brothers. They all need to grow up. We want to be together. I'd love to quit working but that won't happen for another 5 years at least. Meanwhile I struggle with work because of the young ones who don't want to do their share. I am praying his brother will agree to stay in his trailer and keep up the bills so we can get this other place. It's ready to move into. If we give him a check before the truck driver gets there it's ours. We almost missed out on it already. The first people couldn't get the financing. All my frustration came out tonight & I lost it. In some ways I wouldn't mind being off work for 2 weeks but I don't know if my finances can handle it. But what will be will be. I finally feel like this is meant to be....Jack and I will be together a year in January. His health has improved since we started going together. I want to get back to my walking and I really enjoy the geocaching. Please send me good vibes & virtual hugs.