Thursday, November 18, 2010
I sometimes describe my relationship with food as the binge with out the purge. I really do wish I could figure out what causes it though. I have days where things are awesome and I do really well with my eating and I get out side in the sunshine. Then there are days all I want to do is eat and sit and not do anything. And those days are starting to get more and more. And I go through the cycles all the time! I am tired of it. But I am at a loss as to how to quit! I need to get this off and keep it off. I need to let my kids see that I can be healthy. I want my toddler to grow up with a healthy momma not a heavy one. I am getting to where I am not even able to try to pretend that everything is ok with me anymore. I look at pictures and feel disgusted, and wonder how and why I have let myself go like I have. I was doing so well in the beginning of the year.
One thing though that my sister and I have started doing is a Just 10 challenge from Dr. Oz. Its you loose just 10 lbs a year. Now, my goal is to loose 10 pound by the end of this year and keep it off and then loose at least 60 next year and keep that our and go from there. I think that is more realistic than trying to loose 120 pounds in a year.
but we shall see, so here we go again with determination and resolve well just see how long I can keep it this time.