SHANSHE
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Dilemma's

Sunday, December 05, 2010

I'm still not as far along on my portfolio as I need and want to be and Sunday's are hard to get things done, because 1. it is the weekend, 2. habitually I take naps on Sunday afternoons and it is like my body expects them and 3. we have church sunday morning and sunday night and usually john wants me to go here or there and get stuff for lunch, etc...

Anyway, I HAVE to submit my portfolio by Tuesday evening, no matter what and I would like to have it completed, so that I will not be deferred. Part of it is lowering my standards and not being to perfect and realizing that although it says it is supposed to come from my student teaching, that some stuff just will not come from that, because I am not even halfway through my 2nd placement!

Also, Friday, my supervising teacher decided that while she had been doing the planning and I teaching that i would start doing the planning. I thought with just language arts, because I had been teaching that the last two weeks, but I just begin teaching SS on Monday, but I needed to start planning that as well. While I actually agree with her, because it's not that big of a deal, there is alot more to SS that I actually need to STUDY to make sure I know, so I am nervous about teaching it!

I guess what I am trying to say is that needing to study and prepare for SS AND finish the portfolio is making me panic a little and feel like I will be underprepared for teaching and still not get the portfolio done. The panic and overhwelming feeling makes it hard to do either one cause while working on one, I feel bad and anxious about not working on the other one...

Anyway, it's time for church...

Later,
Shan
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  • HOLISTICJESSICA
    I hope you got everything done.
    3842 days ago
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    3852 days ago
  • JINJERLY
    Oh, sweetie, I know what you're going through. I did student teaching while my son was small and it was tough. But you're gonna be fine. You're smart, creative, hardworking, and sensible. emoticon
    3853 days ago
  • LIVE_TO_LOVE
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    You KNOW I don't have much in the way of experience to back up any advice, but I am praying for you and BELIEVE IN YOU, and I KNOW that you can do this. Our message this morning was about not doing things in OUR strength, but by His Spirit. It is when things look impossible and we feel weakest that He is STRONG in us.
    I'm CHEERING YOU ON, BSSF. As for naps ~ I hope you take one. Believe in yourself, Shan...trust in yourself and in the Lord, let go of ANY negativity and let it FLOW.
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    3854 days ago
  • RUTHXG
    It is hard to juggle all these demands--especially when deadlines are pushed forward! May God's peace cover you & may God's strength hold you up, Shan.
    3854 days ago
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    Shannon, I get what your saying. I was raising four kids and "dealing" with a husband while I was in college. The crunch is on and NO ONE in the house GETS it. The stress can be unbearable. Eventually I notified the household my education was top priority for (insert time period) and I packed my stuff and RAN to the library, college campus, and once to my van because I was so darned tired I couldn't drive farther than our nearest park.

    The guilt was heavy because I felt selfish, I was worried the kids would hate me or die of starvation/fighting/lack of my AWESOME parenting skills, or something.

    But it worked for us. None of us enjoyed it but we made it through the toughest/busiest academic moments.

    I'm praying for you Shan. Not much longer!
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    3854 days ago
  • 250STRONG
    Try to relax Shannon. I wish you could just kick your family out of the house for a solid day or so and focus on your school stuff. Can you go somewhere and work?
    3854 days ago
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    Good luck with balancing everything!

    3854 days ago
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