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I MUST finish it...

Sunday, December 19, 2010

I have wanted to blog, I have plenty to say, even insightful things, I just have not wanted to actually DO it!

I think it is because I still have a few incomplete things on my portfolio to work on, so feel that blogging is a privilege I shan't indulge in until I finish my "work". A self-inflicted punishment perhaps??

Anyway, so far, I have enjoyed 6 snow days during student teaching that I must make up, so this puts me close to February before I finish now. Tomorrow, mom wants me to work, so tonight after church and probably Tuesday, I am going to FINISH the portfolio, it is dragging me down, like a lead weight tied around my neck.

For some reason during last week's snow days, I was busy with other things and when I wasn't I just wanted to enjoy my Christmas mood when the snow was falling. Bekah had a sweet friend over one day last week too and I enjoyed that and just listened to Christmas music and chillaxed. But now, the pressure or need to get the portfolio done is overwhelmingly making everything else seem negative and as if I am unworthy of enjoying anything, so it has to get DONE!


P.S. BTW... only thing that happened when I didn't get it done on time is that I got deferred until I finish it. Also, when I finish the portfolio and student teaching, I will be substitute teaching and applying for jobs for next year.
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    So THAT is GREAT news!! After February, you will be OFFICIAL ~ now THAT'S INCREDIBLY exciting, Shan!!!! I am so happy they deferred you. This blog is full of good things...your snow days...that wonderful Christmassy feeling that comes with SNOW is sweet, isn't it? Having a nice day with Bekah and her friend...isn't it always encouraging when the kids bring home NICE friends? It's joy to a mother's heart. :)

    You WILL get that portfolio done, Shan. I'll be working on worship on Tuesday, so we'll be working on projects TOGETHER. :) I hope those letters you're waiting on come back promptly. I can just imagine what a heavy weight this has been for you..on TOP of everything else..caring for your family..the Christmas One thing that comforts my heart is knowing that you know where to run with those burdens, and I know He'll always lead you and guide you in the right direction, and lift your spirit. :)

    Love you SO much!!
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    3835 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/20/2010 8:25:52 AM
    Sounds like alot of work, Shan! Hope you get through it, and can really relax! Good luck! emoticon
    3836 days ago
    I DID get a couple more sections done on my portfolio, but am ready for bed now. Hopefully, I will be able to work some on it tomorrow after working, but if not, Tuesday is dedicated to finishing it as much as I can possibly finish as I am waiting some on other people for letters, etc...
    3836 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/19/2010 11:12:17 PM
    I hope tonight has brought you some fruitful portfolio time, Shan. It will be SUCH a good feeling when it's done!

    But I'm glad you have had some relaxing times to listen to Christmas music & be with your kids. That's important too.

    3836 days ago
    yes Shannon, that portfolio is an awful weight on you, please get it done, so you can enjoy your Christmas.

    3836 days ago
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