I MUST finish it...
Sunday, December 19, 2010
I have wanted to blog, I have plenty to say, even insightful things, I just have not wanted to actually DO it!
I think it is because I still have a few incomplete things on my portfolio to work on, so feel that blogging is a privilege I shan't indulge in until I finish my "work". A self-inflicted punishment perhaps??
Anyway, so far, I have enjoyed 6 snow days during student teaching that I must make up, so this puts me close to February before I finish now. Tomorrow, mom wants me to work, so tonight after church and probably Tuesday, I am going to FINISH the portfolio, it is dragging me down, like a lead weight tied around my neck.
For some reason during last week's snow days, I was busy with other things and when I wasn't I just wanted to enjoy my Christmas mood when the snow was falling. Bekah had a sweet friend over one day last week too and I enjoyed that and just listened to Christmas music and chillaxed. But now, the pressure or need to get the portfolio done is overwhelmingly making everything else seem negative and as if I am unworthy of enjoying anything, so it has to get DONE!
P.S. BTW... only thing that happened when I didn't get it done on time is that I got deferred until I finish it. Also, when I finish the portfolio and student teaching, I will be substitute teaching and applying for jobs for next year.