* The Peanut Butter Cookies are Playing Dirty! *
Saturday, January 15, 2011
So I needed to blog. I skipped blogging yesterday and I feel the effects. So I was doing awesome with calories today and then just ate peanut butter cookies! UGH! It all started this morning when I had to quit my workout a third of the way through because I threw up. It sucked. So then I felt awful about quitting! So then I was doing perfect in calories and here come the cookies at work and I ate some...great now I'm WAY over my calories AGAIN! I'm so frustrated....I keep reading about how everyone is doing so good with their calories and saying no to "bad" foods and I cant do it! I feel like something is wrong with me...I should be able to say no...I feel like I'm the only one that can't do it...I know thats not true but feels like it sometimes.
If I gain weight this week I will cry..my second week and I'm starting to fail again...Definietly need a pick me up...I'm hoping that getting to see my son tomorrow will make me feel better because right now I'm getting pretty sad and furious at myself. I know I can do this...so why aren't I?